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I need therapy. I don’t want the ocd making me obsess about the issues in my relationship… 😞 I am scared I actually want out… how I’ve been acting towards him… it’s becoming difficult to function… I want this to be ROCD so freaking badly!! I love him a lot I cried before I left for work… 😭 I talked to myself how I hate that I constantly obsessed about our issues non stop and that we are trying to make things easier than they are now… my brain talks back and I said if it wasn’t for u I wouldn’t be constantly questioning shit all the time and that I could actually try to find a way to fix things… i know alot of couples fix bigger issues than I am going thru. That’s why I want to stay. I want us to work on our mental state… 😞 bc on both end they are bad… my friend said to both of us that your mental states are stopping you both from living a life and you both need help. I just want to love him.. that all I want bc we really are good together. That’s one thing I know for sure. He’s my baby.. 😢 I just… I just want us both to be happy

Relationship OCD

Username: SofiaLovedAndHealedSofiaLovedAn...

Date posted: 2y ago

Well the fact that you don’t want to not love him right now shows that you’re willing to work this out. You are aware of these thoughts but you’re afraid they might be true because you don’t “feel” like you love him anymore. Don’t base everything off of how you’re feeling. Our feelings can also lie to us. Again, take a step back and deep breaths. Do something else for now that will take your mind off of it. And again, invest in an OCD therapist.

Username: SofiaLovedAndHealedSofiaLovedAn...

Date posted: 2y ago

Keep strong. See if you can at least have 1-3 sessions with a NOCD therapist or any OCD specialist in your area or on telehealth. I watch Nathan Peterson's videos about OCD or Mark de Jesus if that helps. :) I've been through this panic mode before and the feelings and thoughts really suck but please hold on to your relationship if you truly believe it's working out. I tell myself, I won't let whatever this is take over me and tell me how to make decisions. Please be strong. I'll be praying for you.

Username: 7710 ❤️7710 ❤️

Date posted: 2y ago

@SofiaLovedAndHealed It doesn’t feel like ROCD at all anymore!.. 😭😭 I held him tightly before I left for work telling him I love you. I just don’t want this to break us up! 😭😭 it’s like all my happy moments were a lie!!

Username: SofiaLovedAndHealedSofiaLovedAn...

Date posted: 2y ago

@7710 ❤️ What do you do when these thoughts come in?

Username: 7710 ❤️7710 ❤️

Date posted: 2y ago

@SofiaLovedAndHealed The problem my brain believes he doesn’t do enough when he has.

Username: 7710 ❤️7710 ❤️

Date posted: 2y ago

@SofiaLovedAndHealed He took over other responsibilities so I would be less stressed. He tries to cheer me up but… I’m always crying my eyes out… his nerves are shot bc he feels he’s not enough and that I’m gonna break up with him anytime…

Username: SofiaLovedAndHealedSofiaLovedAn...

Date posted: 2y ago

@7710 ❤️ How do you make yourself calm?

Username: 7710 ❤️7710 ❤️

Date posted: 2y ago

@SofiaLovedAndHealed I haven’t been able to calm down it’s been non stop 😭😭

Username: SofiaLovedAndHealedSofiaLovedAn...

Date posted: 2y ago

@7710 ❤️ That’s your priority right now is to sit with the feelings until it subsides but try not to worry about it. These thoughts and feelings are gonna come but it doesn’t mean they’re real and it’s really how you feel. Read that again because it seems like whatever we tell you, unless you believe it yourself, it’s gonna just enter one ear and exit another. All you have to do right now is take a pause, do meditation and mean it, and sit with the thoughts and feelings. I also suggest investing for at least 1-3 sessions with an OCD specialist therapist. Continuing to panic and worry about this constantly will not help. Checking constantly if you love him will not help. You are stronger than you think you are.

Username: 7710 ❤️7710 ❤️

Date posted: 2y ago

@SofiaLovedAndHealed I’m not!! I really don’t believe I love him! I don’t know if I convinced myself but it won’t go away!! I buy him things I give him head massages I even say I love you and then ask myself if I believe it! I always try to hold onto him I am trapped in believing this!!

Username: JB1020JB1020

Date posted: 2y ago

What do you mean when you say "you just want to love him"? Love is action. Love is not thought or feeling. Try a different approach and view love this way. If you make sacrifices, if you do things for him when you don't want to, if you put him before yourself - that is love. That is within your control. What has the overthinking and overanalyzing ever gotten us? Nothing but torture. Focus on action. You got this!

Username: 7710 ❤️7710 ❤️

Date posted: 2y ago

@JB1020 I try… I try all of it it doesn’t work! 😭😭

Username: 7710 ❤️7710 ❤️

Date posted: 2y ago

@JB1020 I give him head massages before bed, I gave him a big kiss goodbye before work but started crying soon after… but I hate how I’ve been feeling… I bought him his favorite drinks.

Username: 7710 ❤️7710 ❤️

Date posted: 2y ago

@7710 ❤️ I just want to love him but it’s just like I don’t want him anymore…

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