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- 6y
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- 6y
That’s the same book I’ve read! Lol very helpful. Again there’s more resources out there for ppl with ocd then we think but remember as much as you probably hear this you are not your past.
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- 6y
Is there any way you could look into apps and websites that offer peer counseling or dbt journaling? I know there are a few on the app store. It’s not therapy, but it’s a good place to organize your thoughts and do some anxiety exercises.
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- 6y
Ive spent a lot of time worrying about mistakes Ive made in past too. From all sorts of angles. Mental compulsions are so tricky to figure out on your own. Have you tried exposure scripts? There are some good resources on pure O these days you open to hearing more about them?
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- 6y
Not nscessarily true but tell yourself it might be true, to learn tolerating more uncertainty around whatever your fear or concern is.
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- 6y
I suggest you start reading up on OCD, it’s crazy how much more confident you feel when you read articles about people who are just like you
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- 6y
I’ve had OCD since I was 14 and was going to therapy on and off for 10 years. I know everything about it but sometimes specific triggers pertaining to me personally are hard to overcome alone even with my general tools from my therapist.
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- 6y
Have you read any books on it?
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- 6y
I read a book called brain lock once about ocd. I had all the tools but real life events got in the way. I had a phase through college always partying and drinking. My black out drunk nights cause a lot of my distress now and start the triggers of my current obsessions.
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- 6y
I know I am not my past but one thing I obsess about is my past coming back to haunt me. Fear of being taped by exes and looking up key words with my name to find myself on porn sites. If even a blurry image looks like me in the slightest I start obsessing its me. It’s really troubling thoughts. My compulsion is to keep checking and I haven’t done so in weeks but it kills me on the inside. I try and talk to myself with sayings my therapist taught me and it only goes so far. She’s always a message away but since I don’t pay to see her anymore I feel bad always reaching out whenever I get triggered off.
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- 6y
...And being in a relationship makes it so much worse. I start to think I’m a bad person undeserving of my boyfriend and I have an urge to go to him for reassurance, and when I don’t I feel like I’m keeping some deep dark secret.
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- 6y
I have scripts from my therapist telling myself this is my ocd this is what my brain does, I will never find evidence, etc...are exposure scripts the ones where you tell yourself the obsession is true so you get numb to the thought over time rather than anxious? I’m open to hear about anything concerning ocd.
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- 23w
There’s this one situation that I haven’t stopped thinking about from last night . So basically, I was reading 'The power of Now' which is a book that I love so much and really got me into spirituality. It’s been so helpful for my OCD and rumination but it’s also been pretty triggering for it as of late, so I’ve taken a long break from consistently reading it. The excerpt I read was about abundance and how its not about being bountiful, necessarily in material things but realizing and being grateful for the things that exist in your life now and in doing so, you will open yourself up to more good things. I understood it but I re-read it a lot because I didn't feel confident enough to explain it to someone else. but otherwise I LOVED IT. It made me feel so at peace, I agreed with it, and it gave me hope to start focusing on the good things in my life rather than the bad. So when I went to bed I rehearsed myself explaining it to someone on a podcast and then all these questions started flooding in like “why should I only focus on the good and aren't we supposed to accept the good and bad? Aren’t those the values of Buddha and spirituality” “Ya, we're supposed to accept the good and the bad but why?- so we can feel more good??? And isn't the point of OCD to not label things as good and bad? and why should I focus on the good- so I can feel good? why should I feel good? because I'm worthy of it? why am I worthy of it? because I'm a good person and do good things? well I’ve also done bad things so why shouldn't I consider that. I just don’t understand why I should feel good without it being selfish. And then this went on for like 2 or 3 hours. Like holy shit. I over explain these ideas and concepts that I resonate with to the point where they don't even make sense to me anymore. It becomes very existensial very quick. And I’m not suicidal but these questions make me feel hopeless in society for some reason?? And myself. Like if everything contradicts everything then what’s the point to life? If nothing can be understood or explained in a senseful way, then how do people move forward and make decisions, like AT ALL? There’s never a right or perfect answer and I feel like with any decision I make in regards, I’m doing a compulsion either way. If I don’t answer them, then I’m avoiding it and if I do then I’m checking and seeking reassurance. I’m sorry if this was way too long and over-explained I just need some advice or to know if anyone can relate in any way. Also, I’m sorry if some of those back-to-back questions were triggering.
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- 22w
I’ve tried living in the uncertainty today & kept myself busy but I can’t shake this feeling that I’m about to lose control & act on my thoughts. I keep feeling like I need to check in to see how I feel & keep my self safe & when I’m near my trigger it feels like I’m being pulled into doing it & feels like I want to but I’m not using compulsions. My thoughts feel like my own & feeling like I’ll be like this forever. Can someone relate or give advice 😩
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- 19w
I sometimes see posts on here of people saying their OCD fears becoming true and it’s so so triggering for me. It makes me question if I ever had OCD and if I’m just faking it. I’ve tried to accept that my fear was real. Okay? Before I knew this was OCD, I really TRIED to accept it as a part of myself because I figured if I was even having those thoughts, it must be true. But in reality it just made me feel worse in the end. It wasn’t until several hours/few days after accepting the thoughts as true did I realize they were not and how uncomfortable it made me identifying with them that way, so eventually I went back into the rumination cycle. And I’ve done this multiple times. No matter how much I’ve accepted it as real, I never come to a conclusion in the end and I just get 10x more miserable. And I am still so scared of my fear coming true as those peoples did. But I know that’s what we all fear, otherwise we wouldn’t be here. And with a new fear I just developed, (all in the realm of the same theme) I’ve also tried to accept it as real when I felt SUPER convinced and even though it felt excruciatingly real, there was a part of me that couldn’t fully believe it, because I just know viscerally that it’s not. But the feeling of it being real is just too powerful and it overmastered any ounce of insight I had left. It wasn’t until my OCD spike calmed down when I was able to see through the viel. I hate this. I have no desire to do anything that my thoughts tell me. I know what I want to be, want to do, and it’s the opposite of those OCD thoughts. But these triggering posts won’t leave. (Not really the publishers fault, it’s my ritual that I engage in). They make me come all back to square one (if I wasn’t there already) and question if I’m using this as an excuse. I don’t want to do what my OCD tells me to do, but my brain just spits, “you’re just convincing yourself you don’t want this!” as it so often now does. I’m so tired. Please give me my old self back. Please give me 100% certainty that none of this is real and my fears are not at all based in reality. My brain cannot accept uncertainty and will not leave me alone. My brain is raged and powerless without knowing why, and spiels that anger back on me to get a reaction, and when it gets what it wants, the cycle continues. And goes way longer than I had bargained for :(
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