Trans and getting hit with Gender OCD

Anyone else trans (especially if transmasc) and experience episodes obsessing over whether or not you're "faking it" or making the "right" choice? I know deep down this is always something I want for myself when I'm mentally my healthiest, but I havent been doing well lately and my OCD has latched onto that self doubt. Especially after seeing videos of detransitioners. Now I'm constantly ruminating and checking my experience compared to other trans people to see if it's "valid" or whatever

Just_trying_...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

Not trans but a lesbian. I had severe sexual orientation and it was really hard to deal with especially since the only experiences I heard with it was from a heterosexual experience. I spent all day trying to figure out if I was into guys or not even though I never had been. I think what makes it worse for those in the LGBTQ+ community is the societal pressure of "social norms" on top of the OCD. What helped me was to sit with the uncertainty. I would tell myself "If I like a guy or not, it doesn't matter. Gender and Sexuality is a spectrum."

gaben

Date posted: 2y

That is such a good reminder... thank you.

Arjay

Date posted: 2y

I'm going through the same thing right now, I'm freaking out i've been freaking out for weeks, every day it starts to feel more and more real. Your OCD started just like mine, I was happy doing fine really happy that I was changing, then it started soon after I got really exposed to a bunch of transphobic rhetoric and transphobic detransitioned people, and now i'm terrified

gaben

Date posted: 2y

I'm so sorry you're going through it too. I hope you have some relief in knowing you're not alone. A mix of the current wave of transphobic rhetoric+that one detransitioner who emphasizes regret, plus having a really intense PMDD episode while on T at the same time. That's what absolutely got me wrecked. I'm slowly coming back from the panic, but the ruminating is still non stop. We are both gonna see it through this episode!

Arjay

Date posted: 2y

@gaben I don't know if I will, it feels so genuine and real, I don't want to be detrans, it feels like I just *became* detrans out of nowhere

gaben

Date posted: 2y

@DragonfruuT My brain is saying the exact same things this week. A good sign for us is that it felt like it just came out of nowhere, and is creating a lot of distress instead of a semblance of comfort. As someone that doesnt wa t to detrans, that sounds like OCD more than anything.

Luke_McElwee

Date posted: 18w

HOCD question

Anyone else with HOCD get thoughts of like "people in denial try to distract themselves" or anything along those lines when just trying to move on from the thoughts. Having a pretty bad episode this morning at least anxiety wise.

spelamarela

Date posted: 15w

Is this happening to you?

Does anyone else ever feel like they don’t feel “bad enough” to have OCD, or that they don’t feel “the right way” for it? Or like they’re just saying they have OCD as an excuse? Because i was so much better for like 3 weeks now and now im on my period and i started doubting again. So because of that im scared that i was feeling to good and that my fear is actually true.

nevieocal

Date posted: 15w

Can someone please help me?

I think when people are saying OCD is egodystonic is really triggering me and I was just wondering if this has happened to anyone else? I’m going through a really bad relapse and right now I’m trying to figure out if my thoughts are truly egodystonic, like I how do I know I won’t act on them, how can I trust my emotions and everything. I feel really confused and I feel like I don’t know who I am anymore or how I carry on with life because it’s so long and I’m so unsure of everything that’s going on in my head. Like how do I know that this is OCD and true desires/urges. I’m so confused.

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