I’ve been using my toilet since I’ve moved in. Dealt fairly well with it and tonight my landlady who is attached to my annexe, was saying how she used to let her grandchildren use this annexe as a play house when it was empty and now I’m freaking out about using the toilet even though I know I’ve cleaned it before and have used it no problems before. I just put nearly half a bottle of bleach over it all and I’m disappointed I gave in to ocd. But I just need to remind myself I can’t be perfect all the time, sometimes ocd will win, but I’ve got to keep fighting and not let it win all the time

I also have contamination ocd and I am petrified of health professionals because I’m so scared I’ll catch something.. why can’t I just accept they know their job

@jody1908 I’m a health care professional, I can assure you we’re all obsessive with washing and sanitising hands hunny because we’re all terrified of catching things from patients

Thank you for your reply. I had 2 nurses who were lovely preforming a check on my cervix following a lengthy miscarriage ? and the one nurse sneezed on the back of her hand and used a tissue she carried on passing things to the other nurse but didn’t change her gloves. Now I’m petrified I caught herpes or something else worse

Aww sorry to hear that, can imagine how distressing that must have been with contamination ocd, I guess it was a way of doing ERP but if does get too much don’t feel afraid to ask her to change her gloves, we don’t take it personally or take offence. I know sometimes people just forget ppe changes. Sorry to hear about your miscarriage also ?

I can’t stop googling things.. do you think i cold have contracted something? Part of me thinks wow that’s really bad but then I think most people who think typically wouldn’t have noticed or been worried about it ever since.. I had already explained my ocd and asked her to change because she touched the lamp with the gloves she had on and she did but it was her assistant who sneezed etc and I just think I was in the moment then and didn’t act quick enough. I really do need help I was on medication that didn’t do much, I also saw a private therapist for cbt but when I had the miscarriage it all took a back seat. Thanks for support

I want to answer you but I’m afraid I’d be reassuring you and we’re not allowed to on here because it encourages ocd, sorry hunny ? but I know exactly what you mean and how you feel! I once was at the doctors and they asked to look down below and I couldn’t let them because I was terrified of being contaminated, so you should be really proud of yourself for being able to let them and dealing with it despite being distressed, it’s good ERP for you in the long run! I’m meant to be on 100mg of Sertraline but I hate how I feel when I take them, I feel really like numb and like I don’t feel anything, I’d rather feel intense happiness and intense sadness in roundabouts than nothing at else. I have private CBT and that seems to be helping, I’ve just gone from weekly sessions to fortnightly now which I’m proud of. You’re more than welcome for the support hunny, and thank you for yours. Nice to be able to talk to someone whose going through similar

Ok I understand. I had private cbt but I haven’t found it that helpful to be honest so I stopped x

Yeah some are better with meds, others therapy, some even manage on their own. It’s whatever works best for you. I hope you can find what works for you soon x

Now I read into words so much I think that by saying you can’t reassure me it means you think I’m at risk. This is also another part of my ocd I stick on words and often over think them

I also used medication but I didn’t feel they helped and also I needed to come off them because of an ecg test that I had in a yearly review z

I totally get what you mean about the thinking different to what people mean! No I don’t think you’re at risk at all hunny, it’s just I’ve had comments removed before because i’ve reassured or it’s been seen as I’ve reassured people and I didn’t want my comment removed and it looks like I was ignoring you hahah! So I will say what my therapist would say and what I agree with, if you were at risk of contracting something would the woman have sneezed in the room with you in? Would they have left you untreated for whatever disease you contracted or would they have given you antibiotics or some other medicine to get rid of it? To help you answer the questions and come up with your own answer to whether you have or not. It’s annoying how they trick you into saying the opposite to ocd but in a way makes you realise actually I obviously deep down am still there trying to fight this irrational fear and panic off! What medication was you on if you don’t mind me asking? As I’ve made an appointment for a review as I don’t know whether to try medication too just for my mood because if my moods low I noticed ocd increases but I don’t want medication that’s going to make me feel numb! What do you feel hella?

*helps