Dothewalkoflife.
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- 2y
Rlly not doing good.
I’ve had overpowering thoughts today. So I started my sertraline tablets hoping it would help. But now I feel worse. The thoughts feel so real but I don’t want them to be real.
Ocd I don’t like these thoughts Ocd I don’t ...
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That last sentence is exactly how I feel. You’re not alone ! They are not real, because you feel worse about them. When the thoughts are true you’re happy and excited!
Dothewalkoflife. Dothewalkofl...
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@Maxime1701 I hope that’s true. But they keep coming in my head and I don’t want them. I really just want to sleep the day away
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@Myheadhurts35 I feel the same way. It’s a thing non stop in my head. I can’t even think of my boyfriend or school. Do you feel the same way?
Dothewalkoflife. Dothewalkofl...
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@Maxime1701 I do. I’m in college atm and old me would be finding the boys there so attractive but I just don’t. It’s so scary. You the same ?
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Absolutely ! When I was young I had crushes on boyband like One Direction. And I was in love with 4 other boys before my boyfriend. So I totally get you!
Dothewalkoflife. Dothewalkofl...
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@Maxime1701 Omg. Have you lost attraction too ?? It’s so scary. I feel so alone with it
Ocd I don’t like these thoughts Ocd I don’t ...
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Yes! You’re not alone!
Lb238Lb238
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- 2y
I feel the same today. I had been doing well lately and the anxiety drops. Then I get the ocd trick of “you want the thoughts” and then all that shit that I’ve got loads of times but I still fall into trap. I fall into the trap because the thoughts repulse me and they aren’t me.
Dothewalkoflife. Dothewalkofl...
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- 2y
@Lb238 Yes yes yes. I’m exactly the same. Sorry your going through this
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I’m happy to read I’m not the only one. It feels so real and somethings it feels like I want it. But the only one I want is my boyfriend
Dothewalkoflife. Dothewalkofl...
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@Maxime1701 God. It feels so real. Does your head ever look for ‘proof’ from the past ?
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@Myheadhurts35 Omg it feels like I’m talking to myself. All the time! I have false memories and thinking: was j aroused in that situation or not. Was I in love with that friend
Dothewalkoflife. Dothewalkofl...
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@Maxime1701 Yesss. I have one fixed thing that happened with me when I was like 8/9 with another girl. And my (hopefully) hocd latches onto it. It’s like, I don’t hate gay people at all, I have many gay friends and I support them completely. But I just don’t want to be gay. I don’t want to accept the thoughts I have incase it’ll mean their true. It feels like a fear of being gay but a lot more complex than that. If that makes sense ?
Ocd I don’t like these thoughts Ocd I don’t ...
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@Myheadhurts35 My best friend is gay, and I totally support him and I support the whole community! I also don’t want to be gay. And if you don’t want something, you don’t have to do it. But that sounds easy, I know. It is a lot more, because we put a lot of value in it. It feels real, but we know it isn’t, but what if it is, what if it’s real, and that al the time
Dothewalkoflife. Dothewalkofl...
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@Maxime1701 Yes. Exactly. Is it okay if I ask your age bc I’m quite young to have this disorder and that’s a big worry of mine
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@Myheadhurts35 Of course ! I’m 20
Dothewalkoflife. Dothewalkofl...
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@Maxime1701 I’m 16 and I feel like I’m too young to have this. So it can’t be hocd. It’s distressing me so much
Ocd I don’t like these thoughts Ocd I don’t ...
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@Myheadhurts35 If I hear your story it’s typically Hocd. It’s giving you stress and discomfort. You have ocd about ocd. I recommend for you to watch the video of Ocd and anxiety and then the one about meta ocd !
Ocd I don’t like these thoughts Ocd I don’t ...
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@Maxime1701 Do you think I have Hocd?
Dothewalkoflife. Dothewalkofl...
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@Maxime1701 Well I mean. You said about exactly how I feel. So whatever we’re going through I really wish you all the best
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@Myheadhurts35 You too!
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- 22w
To stay on meds or not
Prior to starting meds I had intrusive thoughts but not to this degreee! I’ve also just started my period? My doctor basically said to suck it up or up the dose which I’m not overly keen on! Of course my over thinking brain keeps saying but if you come off what if they get worse again?
hereintheUK
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- 14w
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