Is anyone else experiencing or is it me?

I wanted to tell people on here before I tell any of my friends since they’d make fun of me for it. I’ve been having the intrusive thought that I’m going to pee myself, and for past few hours I’ve been going back and forth from the toilet to my bed, it’s nighttime and tbh everything feels like a blur so for me I could have went to the toilet twice or ten times and I wouldn’t have known. My mums being suspicious of me and she’s now wondering why I’m going to the toilet so often, I don’t wanna tell I’m not ill I’m just scared I might piss myself.... and no I haven’t pissed myself since I was a kid it’s like a random fear that’s come out of nowhere. I’m scared it might be getting worse, like my compulsions were mostly internal and now slowly it’s becoming external and I’m actually starting to see real life consequences. Fuck my life