harm ocd - please read

i need help someone. i feel like i’m dying right now, my thoughts came today, and it was going good, till it got triggered by me like kinda laughing at something that wasn’t laughing, which lead me to researching, and that lead me to reading about serial killers and what they had. turns out i feel like everything they were diagnosed with is just similar things i feel like i deal with, i feel lost, i feel stuck, i’m scared, please someone help. i’m scared :( supposedly something i deal with makes it more likely to be a serial killer. 🥲

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Melody2022

Date posted: 2y

If serial killers had ocd I’m sure they would be just as scared and wouldn’t think to act on their thoughts, but they did anyway. You don’t just be normal and then one day your ocd flares up and boom you’re a serial killer. It’s just the ocd talking. I’m going through the same thing, questioning if these are real feelings, and wondering if I’m “meant to be a bad person?” But that thought in itself scares me so that’s how I know it’s ocd. I just tell myself that this isn’t the reality of the situation. It’s really hard to deal with but I’m really trying. When my depression is at its worst, I seriously question “ what’s the point of being good” but I remind myself that it’s the ocd talking.

lanadelrey!

Date posted: 2y

@Melody2022 thank you! yes the ocd flare up randomly made me think i’m a serial killer. makes total sense. thank you for reminding me of that

Melody2022

Date posted: 2y

@Jlol818 It makes me think the same, you’re not alone with that

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Date posted: 2y

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lanadelrey!

Date posted: 2y

@peaceandluv not diagnosed with bpd, but i feel like i could (maybe) have it. idk, just a lot of stuff overall. overall i’m a kind person and really empathetic so i try and remember my morals

lanadelrey!

Date posted: 2y

@peaceandluv oh god. i was researching about serial killers as a compulsion and it was this article assuming all killers had ocd. they stated they all did, but then said: “probably”. hate misinformation

lanadelrey!

Date posted: 2y

@peaceandluv it’s so embarrassing. the grammar was so bad too

lanadelrey!

Date posted: 2y

@peaceandluv THE PROBABLY GOT ME SO BAD

lanadelrey!

Date posted: 2y

@peaceandluv i know! i know my morals i never would, but ocd always second guesses and i don’t know if i really am scared! even tho i am, yk? 🥹

samlovesjesus

Date posted: 22w

how do i know if i have OCD?

so this all started not too long ago, for literally no reason at all. but one day i got a random intrusive thought about harming others and it freaked me out bad. since then i’ve been non stop focusing on it and im genuinely scared that i am, or gonna end up like those sick people that have documentaries about them. i’ve never had these types of thoughts before and after me and my mom looked a lot of stuff up we think i have OCD cuz a lot of the stuff it was saying was accurate to me. to anyone in here, does this sound like OCD to you? i’ve always been a nice loving person and these thoughts freak me out so bad and make me feel like i’m a bad gross person. it got to the point i don’t even like looking at myself anymore. i just wanna go back to normal man. another thing to add, when i would explain this to my mom even though i was telling the full truth on how crappy this made me feel it felt like i was lying almost? but i know i wasn’t deep down. i’m just scared that what if i act on something or get in my head too much you know?

joshuadrennen

Date posted: 20w

struggling with harm OCD

i’m back in a cycle of having harm related OCD thoughts and feelings and urges and i get these episodes where it’s like i’m disassociating and feel like i’m about to snap and go crazy violent. does anyone else experience this? i need help

alyssa_h

Date posted: 19w

i can’t do this much longer

i’m having a full on panic attack, i never used to be like this, what tf is happening to me, why am i like this, i’m so convinced i’m a horrible person and i deserve to be shut out forever because of my thoughts, i’m tired of struggling with harm ocd, i’m scared that because i have mental health issues i’m gonna end up ki!!ing someone someday or end up on the news, when i was at work earlier i kept thinking “how easy would it be to ki!! someone and get away with it” someone help, i don’t feel normal, am i crazy?… 😭😭i know that with ocd you’re not supposed to have reassurance and you have to be “okay” with the situation but.. how am i supposed to be okay with feeling like i could hurt someone…

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