Am I performing a compulsion?

Hi, dealing with sensorimotor ocd. Day by day I’m getting better but my brain is stuck on one thing: When it pops in my head, as in when I become aware of my blinking and then blink or breath with breathing, am I accepting or is this a compulsion im doing? Aside from this the thoughts themselves I’ve rationalized in my mind to just accept that I’m happy to live like this, which brings my anxiety down. The reason I’m confused by this is because I don’t see any other option right? Like I have to blink or breath if the sensation pops in my head because if I don’t, it’s just going to be a painful experience of trying to hold on my sensation. Any advice I’d be greatly appreciative. Thank you.

Username: Nica

Date posted: 84d ago

If you’re doing it to ease stress or anxiety, then it’s a compulsion.

Username: Mustysafeer

Date posted: 84d ago

@Nica Thank you for your quick response. I fear you are right. My brain seems to have latched on to the idea that if I don’t do blink or breath when I become aware then I have impending doom waiting for me. What can I do to combat this? Unfortunately can’t access therapy due to not being able to afford it so been dealing with this on my own but I feel this is my last major issue.

Username: Khensani

Date posted: 61d ago

@Mustysafeer Hi did you ever find help for this