POCD TW: help :/ Just read some really triggering stuff about POCD and I’ve been in a down spiral for roughly 2 and half hours. I feel unwanted attraction towards children, sometimes sexual and I absolutely hate it. Then found a forum for pedophiles that commit to not acting on their thoughts and talked about how much stress and anxiety it bring them. And it just makes me feel like I’m in denial about my OCD. This mixed with some mistakes I made a few years back, what I hope to be false memories, and working with children for 9 hours a day. I’m a wreck. I can’t get to a therapist with my work schedule. I’m terrified and need help.

Oh no! I don’t want it at all. Like I said in my post above. I’d do anything for this to go away. And I went to an ocd specialist in January. But I’m unable to continue for now due to work. But hopefully it will clear up soon. I’m not sure if it was an official diagnosis, but she told my symptoms were OCD. Due to obsessions I had as a child and such and throughout my teenage years.

Don’t feel awful it was just a misunderstanding! I suffer with pocd too so I know it’s scary and I’ve gotten trigger by the same thing you were saying you read . When I read your post it was confusing so I was worried if there was actual bad people on this app . NOT YOU thank you for clarifying and I hope you feel better Cause ocd will make you feel like you in denial it’s horrible

I hope things get better for you as well. I wouldn’t wish OCD on my worst enemy. Hopefully one day we look back on all of this and laugh about how stupid it was.

I'm here for you let's go. I have exactly the same issue and have done for the past 2 years when I seen a 14 year old girl at the pool and thought oh she is good looking and then I thought oh god am I a pedo?? Researched every forum etc and seen the non offending pedos and kept thinking am I one of them? Went through hell at this point and then the age range just got lower of what I thought I was attracted to :( what has made me better is accepting it for what it is. I accept I may be a pedo or I may not be and just accept it for the thought, that's all it is. Trust me accept the uncertainty it helps!

I found a comment from a pedo on an OCD forum and boyyyy does that send me spiraling. He was being nice and encouraging. It’s still so weird for me to think about. How’re you now let’sgo? Ive also been kind of bad lately, the struggle sucks.

It’s a common obsession to worry about “what if I’m just a non offending p” so if that’s it it’s defiantly ocd But you said you feel attraction towards children , that’s not ocd Unless your worried about finding a teen attractive 15 plus I’ve read is normal . Would you mind clarifying your fear?

Well I’ve heard false attraction is a thing. But starting in October I read an article on reddit that talked about pedophilia, and every since then I’ve been obsessing whether or not I’m a P. It’s gotten to the point that when I see a child, my mind tells me I’m attracted to them. And I get a rush of anxiety and disgust. Not sure if that clears it up or not.

@figuringitallout I’ve been doing okay. Meds have been helping but everyday is a struggle still. Only time it’s not is when I’m engrossed in an activity such as cooking or a video game. I just hate this shit so much. I know this is what OCD wants is for me to suffer so I continue the cycle of reassurance. But I’d do anything to go back to the way I was in October before this started.

Yes it helps clear it up , ocd can make you feel like you want something you know you DONT want if that’s what you are feeling I was just confused and scared cause I thought you meant you really wanted and were aroused by ya know ( I don’t want to type it) Have you been diagnosed with ocd?

I’m sorry if I triggered or scared you in anyway. I feel awful for that.

Hey guys, just a quick one. Is POCD just about age? I dated a 19 year old that looked anywhere between 14-18. Is this bad?