benno97
- Date posted
- 2y
So ocd/ hocd
Does anyone genuinely not get anxious from the thoughts and feel like they are in full denial & that they would be happy with the same sex? This feels too real for my liking.
Human 🌻Human 🌻
- Date posted
- 2y
Sometimes i think that i am in denial and i should accept that im gay so i can live happy. There was a period of time that i had intrusive thoughts but not anxiety, it was weird but I know that when you get intrusive thoughts and you don't feel anxious its a good thing.
mrgg11mrgg11
- Date posted
- 2y
@Anonymous 🌻 i m@stur… and i thought on my friend and like ejaculation comed faster is that hocd or im in denial it looked so real
Human 🌻Human 🌻
- Date posted
- 2y
@mrgg11 If you were about to finish and the image pop up in your brain i think it's the ocd.
Sp1999Sp1999
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
Yup
RousRous
- Date posted
- 2y
Going through that right now. And its strange, because I can get an erection fantasizing about women all while my mind is telling me something else. Im not totally sure how to handle it but am hoping that keeping doing nothing and hoping the thoughts continue to lose power is a good thing.
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- Date posted
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Anyone here who really thinks
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- Date posted
- 16w
I have HOCD,pls answer and share your opinion
I really need help understanding what I’m going through. For a long time now, I’ve been struggling with thoughts and feelings about women that confuse and scare me. Sometimes I feel this strange emotional or mental ‘pull’ toward certain women — it’s not exactly sexual, and not clearly romantic either, but it feels like something, and it triggers deep anxiety. When I see a beautiful woman or a WLW (woman-loving-woman) couple, I feel something that I can’t explain — sometimes I think it’s just admiration or aesthetic appreciation, but OCD keeps telling me: “You felt something, so you must be gay,” or “You’re hiding something.” I get stuck in endless loops, trying to analyze these moments and label them. Even when I feel physical or emotional reactions, they don’t feel natural or aligned with who I am. They feel like a reaction to the idea of women, not real attraction. I try to be honest with myself — I even told a friend I might be bisexual at some point, just to test if that felt more comfortable. But it didn’t. It made things worse, and I felt like I lost touch with who I am. I don’t want to lie to myself or live in denial, but I’m exhausted. It feels like I’m being mentally forced to feel something that isn’t mine. I’m 14, and I understand that things might still be developing, but I can’t help feeling like I’ve always been drawn to men, and never naturally wanted women that way. Still, I keep doubting everything. Is this real attraction or OCD feeding false feelings and thoughts? Can OCD create emotional or mental sensations that feel like desire? I’m so scared that I’ll lose myself, or find out something I never wanted. I just want peace and to feel like myself again.
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