HOCD and triggering words

Any talking about sexuality and all that stuff and it triggers me a lot… my HOCD is telling me I’m in denial because I’m getting anxious of everything involving sexuality, even though I only want to ever be straight who loves women my age and above… I don’t ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual in any way shape or form… 😞😞😞 it’s making me feel like I’m anxious of the word “straight” when being straight is all I ever want to be… I get intrusive thoughts of the word “boyfriend” every time i hear the word “straight” and an automatic cringing feeling… I only want to be with women my age and above…

Username: Sp1999

Date posted: 388d ago

Me to !!!!

Username: Givenup

Date posted: 387d ago

@Sp1999 Do you also get false attractions…? My HOCD gives me intrusive feelings of false attraction for certain friends and I hate it so much…

Username: Givenup

Date posted: 387d ago

@Sp1999 HOCD and false attractions I was sitting in the car with a guy friend my HOCD is targeting with false attractions and I kept getting intrusive feelings, and it's making me feel like I can't look at him... and when I do my HOCD is like "your in denial for looking at him" and when I don't my HOCD is like "your in denial for not looking at him." And it's so horrible... and it's making me feel like I'm not anxious about it when I try to see my reaction to the triggering thoughts and making me feel like I don't have to vomit.... I don't ever want to ever be attracted to any guys or any of my guy friends in any way shape or form...

Username: Justmesadly

Date posted: 388d ago

You need to make it your goal to go a whole day or not posting on here