Hocd and false attractions

I was sitting in the car with a guy friend my HOCD is targeting with false attractions and I kept getting intrusive feelings, and it's making me feel like I can't look at him... and when I do my HOCD is like "your in denial for looking at him" and when I don't my HOCD is like "your in denial for not looking at him." And it's so horrible... and it's making me feel like I'm not anxious about it when I try to see my reaction to the triggering thoughts and making me feel like I don't have to vomit… I don't ever want to ever be attracted to any guys or any of my guy friends in any way shape or form...

Username: Dothewalkoflife.

Date posted: 133d ago

I had this. I was round a friends and my head convinced me I wanted to kiss her. I didn’t want to and I was scared. At that point I wanted to go home

Username: Givenup

Date posted: 133d ago

@Myheadhurts35 It gives me intrusive feelings and it makes me feel like I’m not anxious about it either… 😞😞😞

Username: Dothewalkoflife.

Date posted: 133d ago

@Givenup I completely understand. I get that often too. (Even when I typed that I have had it too my head went ‘no you didn’t’. But I remember posting here about it so I did)

Username: Ty

Date posted: 133d ago

Ive gone through this many times in the past! You are not alone my friend. ♥️