HOCD intrusive thoughts are making me feel like I’m not anxious about it, even when I’m in my private time, and intrusive feelings are making it feel so real… and groinal responses that my HOCD is telling me is arousal to the intrusive thoughts when I’m actually looking at women doing stuff and the intrusive thoughts keep popping in… ihml…
I completely understand. And I get this too
@Myheadhurts35 I keep getting intrusive thoughts of the word “boyfriend” and “come out” and it’s making me feel like I’m in denial… ihml…
@Givenup I’ve had the urge to come out too. I even got reassurance from my family that if I did come out I would be accepted and it was so embarrassing because whenever I went out with friends they thought maybe it’s a girlfriend. So I don’t recommend doing that
@Myheadhurts35 When I try to see my reaction to the triggering thoughts, and see if I puke or gag or not, which I do, my HOCD is telling my that I’m conditioning myself to suppress when I dont ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual at all…
@Givenup I understand, I’ve never acted physically (like gag or vomited or such) but I have had that for another theme. And my body did that just because of how much distress it caused me and how much it repulsed me. I almost wish I reacted that way because it might help my head saying ‘see you don’t want this’ but I don’t.
Leave this app, do something about it instead.
@Anonymous Idk why your being rude man…