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I would say keep yourself busy and especially in this moment sit with the anxiety and uneasiness as much as you can
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Ok thank you. This is all so weird. I’m not even that upset about it anymore, and if I was gay I wouldn’t care but it just doesn’t feel right. That’s not me, but my mind won’t get it
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Yeah, before my hocd hit full blown whenever I got my intrusive thoughts and got anxiety I would feel that way when they started to fade away. Means just you're accepting the thoughts and even though they may seem real you know you won't act on them and they don't represent you
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You'll be just fine, everything will go back to normal :):) can I ask how long did you have before you started to feel this way?
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Yeah I get those thoughts sometimes too, a lot of it’s like what if I’m really attracted to girls? Then I get anxious and upset. But I try to remember that if i was that way I would know. I might question it but everything is ok. Because like I said why does it matter? My brothers that way and he’s accepted and if I’m that way I would be accepted. I know I’m not because I don’t want to do that. It’s odd to me, that’s just not my cup of tea. What triggered this whole thing was when a bisexual girl was on my volleyball team. I was scared that she liked me, then I started to question how would I react if she like me? Then it all went downhill. I said “I wouldn’t like her back” and then OCD hit and made me think are you sure? What if I’m gay? Crazy things like that. It’s so dumb
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I’m exactly where you are right now. I’ve “accepted” that it’s natural to be sexual and that if something were to happen it would be okay. it’s not that I want it to happen because I don’t but telling myself that it’s natural and okay makes me feel better? Does that make sense
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Yeah that makes since. It’s just a thought and that all. It’s just confusing. Because idk it’s weird. I know I’m not that way and that’s all that matters
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Thank you for that, that gives me hope! I know I’m going to be ok. I just need to keep pushing, it’s very confusing and weird but I’ll be ok
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Right like I’ll just be chilling and then a thought will pop up in my head like “but what if you meet a girl and do fall for her?” And then get anxious all over again but then I remind myself that it doesn’t mean anything and that even if it does happen, I don’t have to marry her or follow through with anything, people are allowed to experiment. Although I really am not attracted to or want to do that, anything is possible. I hate it because I have no interest in it and those thoughts make me feel like I do but it’s helped loosen the grip on my ocd thoughts so they don’t take over my mind
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@notfortalk it’s been about 7 months now
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Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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- 13w
I’ve completely lost myself. I can’t focus on my studies, I can’t go to the gym. Dang it I can’t even be around my male friends normally anymore. I got no idea why or how this happened but the only thing I know for sure is that I never questioned my sexuality neither doubted it. I never cared in general. I just liked girls. I keep testing and keep testing and keep testing my arousal but no matter how many times I see but I don’t feel the same way for guys that I do with girls my mind will always try to make me believe that I am gay. It’s like it’s forcing me into an identity I never asked for. But at the end of the day like my psychologist told me. Sexuality doesn’t change. So since I never felt anything for guys in my life it’s ocd. I’ve been up and down for 5 months now and while the last week I was feeling way better. Monday now and I’m back to zero. I just want to go back when everything was normal. I can’t keep living with this.
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- 12w
Like I can’t think straight. This is making me doubt everything I’ve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I don’t. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go “oh so you like it you must be gay” or the other one where I’m not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that I’ve had my whole life and my mind goes “see now you’re not into them you’re gay” like it’s so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or “a thing of the past”. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and it’s so weird. Today I’ve spent my whole day thinking about it like I’ve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just won’t let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
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