- Username
- Iann
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I do feel like that, but lately I’ve been trying to be strong. I’m not as anxious as I used to be about the thoughts. I’m almost not anxious at all only when certain thoughts pop up. I used to cry almost everyday but now I’m actually ok. What I try to do is let the thoughts be there, it’s not going to do anything to you. Yeah it’s scary and weird because you know that’s not what you want to be but if you were that way you would know. That’s what I try to tell myself! I hope everything gets better for you and everyone else on here! It’s confusing going through stuff like this because it’s always doubting everything.
This is so mentally draining, I just tell people I have depression (which is true) but Nobody knows about my ocd and hocd.
Me too. I try getting back on my swimming habits after lot going for a few weeks. My thoughts are at it’s worse then. I have to just swim for an hour because I can’t do it more. I cry every single day now. I even hit myself now. In school I can’t even function because of my anxiety. I feel like shit
when i felt really depressed i would set a plan for myself start making little comforts like making tea or watching douglas blochs videos hes really good and meditation helped especially (i use headspace)
Me neither. My parents know about my ocd but not my hocd
that must be really tough i have an aunt who has ocd and she helps me a lot do you have anyone youre close to to tell? because for me its really nice to have a public place for support but to be able to talk to someone close to me and have them understand me like even with the worst fears my aunt always told me just so you know no matter what you say do or think i will always love you and that kind of support was what i needed
it was scary though to just be like this is what im going through and i need help and not explain myself to them so they believe me but my mom and aunt didnt doubt me for a minute and soon enough i was in counseling and ive been doing better i hope it gives you guys hope to reach out
I have my brother, I have hocd as well and he’s bisexual. Sometimes I just ask him to help and he helps a lot because he knows that I’m ok. If I was that way he would tell me.
So looks like I’ve hit a wall I haven’t hit ever with this ocd. If you can even call it ocd. I genuinely feel confused. Idk what’s real or not. Idk what my mind or body wants. I feel so stressed out. My thoughts don’t give me anxiety anymore and sometimes it genuinely feels like I want it and I’m just hiding it. I don’t get it. I even lost attraction to this girl I was madly interested in. I don’t know what to do anymore really. I see any dude and my mind automatically starts thinking “you’re attracted to him” literally every single guy I see. I’m not even kidding. I really don’t get what’s going on with me. I haven’t been diagnosed yet because there are no ocd specialists in my area. My mom told me once she thinks she has ocd and my aunt as well. But their ocd seems more like the “traditional” type of ocd where you can actually see their compulsions. I think I struggled from Religious ocd a few years back. Also with my ex girlfriend there was a period where I struggled with ROCD I believe but got over it. Now Hocd has definitely been the worst and what makes it worse is that I actually had a gay experience but even after that I didn’t question my sexuality. I maybe would get the ocasional “you’re gay” thought but wouldn’t pay it attention and it just went away. But now it just can’t leave my head. This has been going on since February. I used to be crazy for women, don’t know what’s wrong with me. I even had sex with the girl I really like about 2 weeks ago and really enjoyed it! But now my attraction for her seemingly disappeared out of nowhere when this hocd bull starts acting up again. I’m so tired of this.
Does anybody else obsess over their health, and feel completely exhausted.. I’ve been having severe ocd and anxiety the past few weeks.. I just feel like it takes everything out of me to get up and do anything, and i just feel so exhausted all the time. it’s hard to even get house work done, and i feel like when i get up to do stuff i shake inside.. Does anybody else get like this. I have myself so paranoid that something is wrong with me
I’m so tired of my thoughts. Some days I feel better, no thoughts or just a few, some other days I feel like I’m totally in denial and I’m hiding this part of myself to me but above all to the people around me, especially my boyfriend. I can’t really stand anymore the presence of these thoughts, make me feel I won’t be happy in my life never again and this makes me feel super depressed, I’m afraid I can develop depression. ROCD and SOOCD make me doubt myself and my feelings, and every time I see a case where a person find out later in life to be gay I literally start to cry. I can’t stand this anymore, really. I’m in therapy actually, so it is better compared to a few months ago, but I always question if it’s really ocd or not.
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