I’m trying to remember that if I was gay I would know. Then my mind try’s to say “how do you know you’re not gay?” It’s honestly funny to me at this point. Because I literally said it before that I would KNOW I was gay. I kind of laugh because it’s just trying to play with my mind. I don’t need complete proof to know. It would just be known that I was gay, I might be confused but there would be proof that I was gay. You know??

I think I finally came to a realization that it isn’t true. I obviously still doubt everything. But you can’t suddenly change, you can’t suddenly turn gay. You would know you were that way. My brother always talks about his crushes on boys when he was younger, he thought boys were cute since like 7th grade. Then he remembered crushes when he was younger. I’ve never felt that way towards girls. It’s dumb and I’m tired of it. So fuck it, who cares? I’m fine

Everything’s going to be alright, you had another type of ocd it can pass on to another one. You have hocd, I can tell. I don’t know if that’s reassurance but you need to hear it.

If you were happy think about these thoughts I don’t think you would be here on this app right now. You wouldn’t be here at all. You would KNOW. Knowing is such a big thing. We just want to know the answer all the time. But if you were that way it really wouldn’t be a question. You might question wait I’m really gay? Are you sure? Wait I like girls? Things like that you might even question am I gay? But for us those thoughts cause a lot of confusion. Their answer is always yes ours is always idk or no. It’s really confusing and I know this isn’t going to help you. But you really have to try, try to get it through your head! I really want you to get better, because I can tell you’re going through hell. I know it’s shitty but I think you can do it

I’m sure she won’t! It will be ok, be glad you can go to a therapist. It will be ok I swear❤️

It’s ok I swear you’ll be fine. My brain made me think that because I got my glasses that I suddenly liked girls. I don’t even have bad vision I just can’t see certain things on the board. Ocd is dumb don’t listen to it

Well I hope you have a therapist who specializes in ocd because sometimes that can happen because they don’t know what ocd actually is like. They can confuse it for something else

Yeah I know. It’s hard❤️