- Username
- Yeehaww
- Date posted
- 132d ago
- Sexual Orientation OCD
HOCD
I don’t know if I’m compulsion but I probably am. I still can’t figure out my SO, I’m feeling a little anxious but I keep asking myself if I’m “gay” or “straight” like I want to be with a man but I also am scared I’m never going to find someone to love, and what does that say about me… I’ve chosen to do things based off my religious. And now I’m like did I do that for God or was that an excuse so I didn’t have to do it. I’m wondering if I’m just having internalized homophobia… but at the same time I’m like I don’t want to be with a female cause I don’t want to… the thought of being with one is just something I don’t have interest in… but then again am I just telling myself that because I’m in denial . I don’t even know 😔