HOCD

I don’t know if I’m compulsion but I probably am. I still can’t figure out my SO, I’m feeling a little anxious but I keep asking myself if I’m “gay” or “straight” like I want to be with a man but I also am scared I’m never going to find someone to love, and what does that say about me… I’ve chosen to do things based off my religious. And now I’m like did I do that for God or was that an excuse so I didn’t have to do it. I’m wondering if I’m just having internalized homophobia… but at the same time I’m like I don’t want to be with a female cause I don’t want to… the thought of being with one is just something I don’t have interest in… but then again am I just telling myself that because I’m in denial . I don’t even know 😔

Username: Sp1999

Date posted: 132d ago

Lets not figure this out , it hurts us more :(

Username: Yeehaww

Date posted: 132d ago

@Sp1999 I’m just so sad I want my life back

Username: Sp1999

Date posted: 132d ago

@Yeehaww I do to believe me

Username: Yeehaww

Date posted: 132d ago

@Sp1999 This stinks. It feels like all the desires I’ve once had are no longer the desires I want anymore.

Username: Sp1999

Date posted: 132d ago

@Yeehaww I get it

Username: Yeehaww

Date posted: 132d ago

@Sp1999 Like I’ve never felt more confused over my sexual orientation. I’ve always wanted a heterosexual relationship yet I’ve never been in one. I’ve never wanted to be with a female. I just have gotten super anxious with dating. I get a bit uncomfortable around those of the same sex attraction… but once I get to know them I’m okay.. i would never judge someone based off their SO, it’s an internal thing. I feel like it’s a threat to my sexual orientations which is I guess that OCD is being triggered

Username: Sp1999

Date posted: 132d ago

@Yeehaww Trust me I understand very well

Username: thebeginning

Date posted: 132d ago

It's like you literally went inside my brain. Word for word I feel this. Sorry you're struggling 💔 this sucks