- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Username
- GelPensXL
- Date posted
- 494d ago
- "Pure" OCD
- Suicidal OCD
ERP Wins
Been going at my suicide theme hard this last week and this morning, as I was watching videos, my Curious Researcher Side kicked in and was getting really invested in learning. Now I'm suddenly really excited to create a crisis plan like it's a new art form. A week ago, I'd be horrified! But despite the anxiety still kicking around in the back, I'm more curious than anything. Still have no idea if I'm really suicidal or not - deep inside it's a no - but I'm rolling the dice again and choosing to believe it's just OCD. And hey, at least it's taught me more about something that can be of huge help to myself and others.