yesterday was the first day in a while i felt like myself, i curled my hair and put on a cute outfit and i just felt like me. intrusive thoughts at a minimal and it was just a good day. now today i’m back what i was before where hocd is taking over again and i’m just so uncomfortable and don’t want to look at myself. this is so frustrating. i want to be able to wear my whatever i want like i used to and not question myself
I get days where I feel normal. Even today I had a moment where a stranger (friend of a friend) was so kind considering the stressful situation I was in and he helped me and wanted to make sure I was safe. I felt some attraction towards him. As soon as I got home my head made me think I was lying and felt nothing. This is horrible
@Myheadhurts35 i’m sorry. i know how that feels. it feels like constantly lying to yourself. i also notice whenever i am out and busy i don’t think, but the second i get home it gets bad again like :/ home is supposed to be a safe place :(
@444co I’m 100% the same.