Rayma15
- Date posted
- 3y
Contamination OCD
I'm hating my life and the fact that I'm always unconfortable in my parents' house. I hate the fact that I am not normal like anybody else. I just want to live in peace.
EstridEstrid
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- 3y
Get you, you are not alone with tjis experience, I feel the same in my own home, its hard. Dont give up, search for therapy, you are normal but your amygdala is a bit hyperactive. With ERP it can learn to calm down.
Rayma15Rayma15
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- 3y
Thank you. I'm living with my parents. I really want to leave the house but I can't currently. I'm also afraid that if I leave, I can't return even to see themđ˘ my whole anxiety is toward this house. I have a contamination OCD + an emotional contamination that makes is too hard to support
KillianKillian
- User type
- NOCD Alumni
- Date posted
- 3y
Iâm so sorry to hear youâre feeling this way. Itâs so hard to live with OCD, and I resonate with what youâre saying about wanting to live in peace. With ERP, the idea is to take it step by step. If touching something that you fear is contaminated gives you a panic attack, you would probably start with something that is less distressing on a scale of 1-10. Eventually you can work your way up to higher exposures. I second Jeffreyâs encouragement, it really is so helpful to have a therapist to guide you through the process. It takes time, and unfortunately itâs not an overnight fix. But when we decide to go through with it, and stick with it, it really can make a huge difference. The most amazing part for me has been feeling like myself for the first time, and not letting OCD control me. Know that that hope exists for you, too. The hard work really pays off. I hope you feel the support you have in this community and know that we are right here alongside you even when it is hard!
Rayma15Rayma15
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- 3y
Thank you so much
DutchgirlDutchgirl
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- 3y
I have many contamination issues at my parentâs house and my own as wellâŚ.I hate it. Everyday is overwhelming. I am working through ERP but am really struggling with really difficult tasks. It is so frustrating when your home is supposed to be a sanctuary. I hope you find peace.
Rayma15Rayma15
- Date posted
- 3y
Thank you so much
weallgotthisweallgotthis
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- 3y
i totally relate to this and am working on the same thing but you got this!! we all believe in you :) baby steps!
Rayma15Rayma15
- Date posted
- 3y
It's heartwarming to hear that. Thank you
Jeffrey Jeffrey
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
Ocd is a difficult disorder. As you know it attacks what means the most to us. Have you had ERP treatment ?
Rayma15Rayma15
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- 3y
Yes, it hurts so much. The problem is that I can't even hug people that I love and I can't live with them normally either. I didn't do ERP therapy but I tried in the beginning to do it. Touching contaminated things give me strong panic attacks
Jeffrey Jeffrey
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
@Rayma15 I am so sorry this is invading your life. If you have the opportunity to work with an ocd trained therapist they would be able to help you with all of these fears. I will say this - OCD is lying to you. It is sending false alarms to your brain saying there is danger when in reality there is likely no danger at all. Ocd looks for 100% certainty that nothing bad will happen - and that is not only unrealistic it is impossible. If you are unable to get therapy you could go to you tube where there are lots if helpful videos.
Rayma15Rayma15
- Date posted
- 3y
@Jeffrey Thank you. I want to enjoy life and love, be happy but I can't no one will support me as I'm dealing with this disease. I feel like I'm causing pain to people I love but it's really not me
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