I need to know if this is My OCD or something else

@Miserable So sorry your going through that 😭 I really hope yours gets better have they offered you any help?

@Sbromul Wow thank you so much!! This is what I needed to hear! I’ve been really struggling with this I even went out for the first time in a week to go get seen and on the car ride there my thoughts were going hay wire and I was trying to convince myself that all the cars were not people because and there was monsters in them following me but I knew it wasn’t real and was just trying to convince myself it was schizophrenia that’s how bad it was but I know all this isn’t real I can’t wait for it to pass thank you for your comment it really does help ❤️

@linds123 The mind is a naughty powerful child and can really freak you out. If you think “they are monsters” then say oh well I like monsters and remove the power of it and if you think does that mean I’m schizophrenic try and say no it means I’m anxious about being schizophrenic and that is the difference. OCD grabs your worse fear and for whatever reason this is yours atm. You got this!!!! Bath in epsom salts (if it’s safe when pregnant) Reading about OCD makes me feel normalized and reassures me I’m not going crazy so may help you as sure there are loads more with that irrational thought/ fear atm too. Hormones suckkkkkkk.

@Sbromul Wow I never thought of it like that!! I will definitely be using this for next time I’ve been terrified since then to go back out in public because of that so I’m gonna just do it again tomorrow and see how it works for me it really OCD is really the root of evil I can tell you that! I’m happy you were able to get help with everything as well! How did u go about getting therapy? I’ve never been and I am really interested this time In doing it because I do really need it! Also does this get worse after having the baby as well?

@Sbromul I will definitely be looking into that!! I really appreciate you giving me such good advice! No one else seemed to be going through the same so I legit thought I was getting it! Lol it’s crazy how our minds work sometimes especially with OCD and yes the anti depressant I was on made mine soooo much worse I had a really bad reaction to it so I just stopped taking it so I willl see about the pill you are on because I definitely need something that’s for sure!

@Miserable Right! I promise you cps will not be called they will not do that to you if anything they will try to help you and navigate what the best help will be for you

@linds123 When you say that they will try to help me do you mean the doctors themselves or cps? I just don't want any involvement with cps at all. I was just so upset yesterday at my therapy session, i tried explaining what was going on the best way I could and once I calmed down when I got home I realized I should have worded things differently than I did, because my therapist took some of the things I said the wrong way. Should I clear things up with the nurse practitioner today?

@Miserable Cps can’t really do anything unless they see the child is being physically harmed and abused they won’t just take your child away because you are going through something mentally and I meant the doctors will help you find something that will help you further into your mental health it will be ok they will not take your child for this!

@linds123 Thank you so much! I don't want it to seem as I am seeking reassurance I just don't want to be involved with them. My parents told me that if the therapist thought in any way that my child at home was in any kind of harm they would have sent someone out yesterday after leaving the therapy session.

@Miserable That is totally true! They would have already been there if they really thought you were going to do something harmful! It’s ok to seek reassurance sometimes especially in situations like this

@linds123 Do you think that cps may end up coming to the hospital when baby is born and want to come out for like a welfare visit to ensure everything at home is OK? Never really crossed my mind about cps even getting involved about my mental illness, until the therapist asked yesterday if she could talk to my baby doctor about what is going on, because she was concerned that when the baby was born that I may think my baby is doing this and that when in fact she wasn't. She said most people refuse due to them being worried about getting their kids taken away, and that really petrified me. I refused, but am still scared she can go behind my back and talk to my baby doctor anyways.

@Miserable No CPS will not be involved at all! This is a very common OCD symptom especially with moms that have harm OCD that’s why she is telling you that usually people don’t come forward with what they are going through because they are afraid of there baby’s getting taken away which is not the case the reason she’s bringing it up to ur OB is because they are probably going to look into more treatment options for you

@linds123 Yeah she said that she wanted to follow up with him to ensure they was asking me the appropriate questions at my visits and not just the regular how's your appetite, weight gain/loss type of questions. I refused her to speak with him after she told me most people refused because of said reason. I just thought everything was suppose to be confidential, but I've read where a therapist or doctor can break confidentiality if they think you are a harm to yourself or others.

@Miserable Are you seeing a therapist that specializes in OCD or is it just a regular therapist?

@linds123 Just a regular therapist.

@Miserable You need to see someone that specializes in OCD because they can give you the proper help you need I would talk to your OB and tell them that you have it so they can set you up with someone that can actually help and understand what you are going through!