Thoughts came with great anxiety and panic at first but now it feels like I want it. Feel like im lying to myself, don't understand how this can happen overnight, so depressing.
I totally feel this.. It also feel like I want it..
I don't know where your at in your OCD journey- but I will say that as a therapist I hear this a lot. Sometimes when people are getting better through ERP or medication they will say this, because the anxiety has lessened so much that it feels more real. Remember OCD is all about doubt- doubting yourself in this case- you said it feels like....feelings can be misleading- OCD inserts doubt into feelings- try and sit in the maybes. Maybe you want whatever it is, maybe you don't but you can cross that bridge when and if you ever get there. Hope this helps.
Thankyou for your reply, I had my second session with nocd therapist yesterday, mainly assessing but will be putting things into place in the upcoming weeks, I haven't done ERP yet. I have a girlfriend and a baby, so I think it's just alot of pressure on me, I thought everything was great until this started and now I don't know if I can carry on in the relationship.
