- Date posted
- 2y
Small Win
First time back at the pool since HOCD got bad. I was worried, as could be expected I guess. I saw a dude walk in with a Speedo and my mind went racing and I had to check twice and was freaking out and in the midst of it, this thought hit me “the last time you were aroused in the pool was with your ex girlfriend.” It was like a light turned on. The racing mind was still there, frustratingly, but it was like I realized, oh…this is silly. And was able to finish my swim in (relative) peace.