Stardust777
- Date posted
- 2y
False memories
People with this theme how long did you guys have it for??
TheBrighterSideOfMeTheBrighterS...
- Date posted
- 2y
7 months, and it went away for about 3 weeks, now I have what I hope is only another false memory that seems worse than the one before.
Stardust777Stardust777
- Date posted
- 2y
@Miserable Ugh ☹️ that’s so long I’m sorry. I have this one that’s pretty bad for two months. I want it gone. How did you handle it? Did it feel like you needed to confess alot ?
TheBrighterSideOfMeTheBrighterS...
- Date posted
- 2y
I confessed everyday. Literally every single day. I seeked reassurance everyday. That false memory finally went away, and was instantly replaced with this new thought, which is absolutely horrible.
Stardust777Stardust777
- Date posted
- 2y
@Miserable I’m here if you want to vent. We’re yours vivid? Like details and your able to connect the “memories”?
TheBrighterSideOfMeTheBrighterS...
- Date posted
- 2y
Everytime I replayed the memory over and over again, it was so vivid and detailed I just knew it happened, and couldn't convince myself otherwise. It literally turned into a real memory for me.
Stardust777Stardust777
- Date posted
- 2y
@Miserable Yeah the same thing is happening to me 😭😭 it’s awful I tried to find other people and they didn’t get what I was trying to say and I started freaking out thinking it was real and I was just in denial.
InkJoy123InkJoy123
- Date posted
- 2y
@Miserable holy hell has this been happening to me, I got a full on spike when getting the "memory" the same way I got a spike with my real event. After that I've just gotten my mind telling me that I've done these things and there is no hint of me not doing it. No it feels and looks like I did ! Even saying its a false memory feels like me lying and trying to run away from it :/ Does your mind really convince you like that ?
TheBrighterSideOfMeTheBrighterS...
- Date posted
- 2y
@InkJoy123 Yes it does! I literally believe my mind over anything. Like I ask for reassurance constantly just in different ways but trying to get a different answer, when in reality I keep getting the same answer because it's the truth and I don't want to accept it because my mind is like they are lying and what I remember is true, but even if they gave me a different answer I would still flip out and question it. It's so draining.
InkJoy123InkJoy123
- Date posted
- 2y
@Miserable its just so tough, it also sucks cause this realness feeling feels different from past ones ive had, so it gets me so confused since this one feels i guess makes more sense then how it was before :/
TheBrighterSideOfMeTheBrighterS...
- Date posted
- 2y
@InkJoy123 Yes I feel like I should turn myself in.
Stardust777Stardust777
- Date posted
- 2y
@Miserable Same :(
TheBrighterSideOfMeTheBrighterS...
- Date posted
- 2y
Yes that's how I feel also! I keep asking for reassurance when it is just feeding my sickness. It doesn't matter what I am told, I am not satisfied with any answer I get.
Stardust777Stardust777
- Date posted
- 2y
@Miserable ☹️ same here I kinda got reassurance and I still didn’t care. It made memories around that. I hate it. It’s so tiring. Are you in therapy? Or doing erp?
TheBrighterSideOfMeTheBrighterS...
- Date posted
- 2y
I'm in therapy but haven't started erp yet. Do you still seek reassurance after getting answer? Like do you feel like no matter what they say, you are convinced otherwise that it indeed happened, but if they tell you another answer you still ain't satisfied and you question that answer?
Stardust777Stardust777
- Date posted
- 2y
@Miserable Yes. I question whether I could even trust them or if they’re lying. I even hate when people say to leave the past in the past. Because I want to know, I NEED to know. I don’t ever think I’ll have a for sure answer and that makes me mad.
TheBrighterSideOfMeTheBrighterS...
- Date posted
- 2y
This is me!!! Everybody is like you ain't satisfied with any answer you get! I'm like because they are telling me it didn't happen but in my mind it did and I remember it, drives me nuts.
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