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- 2y
False memories
People with this theme how long did you guys have it for??
People with this theme how long did you guys have it for??
7 months, and it went away for about 3 weeks, now I have what I hope is only another false memory that seems worse than the one before.
@Miserable Ugh ☹️ that’s so long I’m sorry. I have this one that’s pretty bad for two months. I want it gone. How did you handle it? Did it feel like you needed to confess alot ?
I confessed everyday. Literally every single day. I seeked reassurance everyday. That false memory finally went away, and was instantly replaced with this new thought, which is absolutely horrible.
@Miserable I’m here if you want to vent. We’re yours vivid? Like details and your able to connect the “memories”?
Everytime I replayed the memory over and over again, it was so vivid and detailed I just knew it happened, and couldn't convince myself otherwise. It literally turned into a real memory for me.
@Miserable Yeah the same thing is happening to me 😭😭 it’s awful I tried to find other people and they didn’t get what I was trying to say and I started freaking out thinking it was real and I was just in denial.
@Miserable holy hell has this been happening to me, I got a full on spike when getting the "memory" the same way I got a spike with my real event. After that I've just gotten my mind telling me that I've done these things and there is no hint of me not doing it. No it feels and looks like I did ! Even saying its a false memory feels like me lying and trying to run away from it :/ Does your mind really convince you like that ?
@InkJoy123 Yes it does! I literally believe my mind over anything. Like I ask for reassurance constantly just in different ways but trying to get a different answer, when in reality I keep getting the same answer because it's the truth and I don't want to accept it because my mind is like they are lying and what I remember is true, but even if they gave me a different answer I would still flip out and question it. It's so draining.
@Miserable its just so tough, it also sucks cause this realness feeling feels different from past ones ive had, so it gets me so confused since this one feels i guess makes more sense then how it was before :/
@InkJoy123 Yes I feel like I should turn myself in.
@Miserable Same :(
Yes that's how I feel also! I keep asking for reassurance when it is just feeding my sickness. It doesn't matter what I am told, I am not satisfied with any answer I get.
@Miserable ☹️ same here I kinda got reassurance and I still didn’t care. It made memories around that. I hate it. It’s so tiring. Are you in therapy? Or doing erp?
I'm in therapy but haven't started erp yet. Do you still seek reassurance after getting answer? Like do you feel like no matter what they say, you are convinced otherwise that it indeed happened, but if they tell you another answer you still ain't satisfied and you question that answer?
@Miserable Yes. I question whether I could even trust them or if they’re lying. I even hate when people say to leave the past in the past. Because I want to know, I NEED to know. I don’t ever think I’ll have a for sure answer and that makes me mad.
This is me!!! Everybody is like you ain't satisfied with any answer you get! I'm like because they are telling me it didn't happen but in my mind it did and I remember it, drives me nuts.
any advice for when you get false memories that feel really real? especially something that had JUST happened, it’s like ur brain distorts it. i feel like i do something wrong 24/7 then i get over it and ocd latched onto something new
Does anyone else’s false memory intrusive thoughts of what could have happened feel very, very real?
So. I was in a traumatic relationship. for a long time. it was filled with gaslighting, manipulation, abuse, cheating ect. I would OBSESS over finding out where they were, what they were doing, who they were talking too. but I couldn’t leave. I tried so hard but I never could. they would call me names, physically hurt me, throw things, break things. because I would question them all the time. but I just couldn’t leave. no matter what I knew. they would manipulate me. I fell for their childhood trauma. it’s like I lost all logic. but I also feel like I have a pretty good memory with memories. not all the way, but remembering a lot of the traumatic things. especially now that I’m no longer with them. I keep remembering things that’s happened. even from my childhood. one time way before I even started dating this person, I had an intrusive thought about a friend of mine. that was with me. and I freaked out. I thought I had acted on the intrusive thought the next day. I asked my friend for confirmation but they said nothing happened. but the memories about it feel SO REAL. so VIVID. but they swore that nothing happened and they had no idea what I was talking about. I’ve struggled with intrusive thoughts for my whole life. so fast forward to now, that ‘false memory’ from my friend randomly popped up and I started obsessing about it, and my childhood ‘memories’ that have popped up. and then I was reading an article of someone doing something horrible, and then it sounded ‘familiar’ and so then I’ve created this whole memory of me doing something similar to the article involving my partner doing it also. the memory keeps adding new things and conversations around it. when it involves an actual real memory. but it’s like it’s been twisted from what I remembered before. I also suffer from bad anxiety. I’ve stalked pictures. my search history to figure out what I was doing that say when the real event happened. and I’ve found some things but I can’t look through my texts because I got a new phone. it has been hounding me for months. MONTHS. trying to figure out if this new ‘memory’ is real or not. if it’s been fabricated by an intrusive thought from reading the article and thinking ‘what if’ or if it actually happened and because I’m no longer in this relationship it’s a ‘repressed memory’ but the thing is I have horrible horrible anxiety and I don’t think I could have gone this long knowingly that that happened without remembering it until now. because I remember a lot of the horrible things that they did. this ‘memory’ is fuzzy, but it brings me horrible anxiety when I think of it, like I feel like it happened. but I also feel like it didn’t happen. because I know I would never do anything like that. but WHAT IF I DID, because I was manipulated. idk. is this a false memory. I really need help. because it’s been debilitating. that relationship was really traumatic. and I got manipulated into a lot of things. but I wouldn’t have just went forward knowing that that happened??? there’s no way I could have just forgotten it. because before when I would think about that night it was different, until now. but what if I just made myself forget what truly happened?? I’m a pretty self aware individual, but somehow that relationship really REALLY put me into a trance somehow where I allowed things that I have no idea how I would even allow because before I met that person I would have never allowed someone to cheat on my constantly or talk to me the way they did. or allow abuse. like I don’t understand it.
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