- Date posted
- 2y
So lost
I just don’t know what to believe anymore. It’s like it’s true.. it’s like I’ve changed already Help.. please
I just don’t know what to believe anymore. It’s like it’s true.. it’s like I’ve changed already Help.. please
I feel the exact same it's like I've lost my own identity and attractions to the opposite sex.
@NeverGiveUp I hear you man.. I have a girlfriend and it’s so much harder.. feels like I’m going to lose her
@Anonymous I'm the same somedays I feel so distant to her and that's what mostly fuels mine that and the loss of attraction
@NeverGiveUp Yeah man I hear you.. feels like I’m just faking it all at times. The amount of times I’ve cried in front of her and she’s the one holding me man. I’d be balling my eyes out man. I just hate how real it feels, how convincing it feel, and how it feels like denial
@Anonymous I feel the same way bro it's not even the thoughts that bother me anymore it's the uncertainty of not knowing who I am anymore on top of that loss of identity as well. The only reason I got over hocd in the first place was because of her and now it decides to relapse and ruin everything.
@NeverGiveUp For sure man. Thoughts are still getting to me, but at times it’s hard to tell if it’s me thinking or just OCD. I’m scared to marry my girlfriend because of what I could realize in the future.
@Anonymous That's one of my biggest fears as well
@NeverGiveUp Yeah man.. it eats me up alive at times.
I feel the exact same and I’ve been married to my loving and wonderful husband for 6 years and we have our first kid together and ever since his birth my OCD went in over drive and made me feel less attracted to him and I started losing my identity all over again. Some days are good and some aren’t
@Millerbm I’m sorry. I am praying for you friend.
Do you take meds?
@Newb82 I used to. Do plan on getting back on them.
I feel the exact same way
I'd recommend ERP and learning to accept whatever life brings your way.
@Devu Doing my best. But not easy to accept “what life brings my way” when it could potentially be ruining a family.
I need some help. I keep having thoughts that I don’t believe in God anymore or that I don’t want to believe in God. I have always believed but I just recently started following him more closely. I did ask for Jesus to come into my heart. But now I’m scared that I have lost my salvation. It’s hard to read and pray and I keep getting thoughts that I don’t believe what I reading or that God won’t forgive the sins that I have done. I have been having panic attacks and I’m afraid I’m going to go to hell or I’m afraid that it’s true and I don’t believe in God. I’m also afraid that since God does know my heart what if it truly isn’t for him. I just need some help I’m afraid I’m never going to get back to normal.
Hi everyone, I haven’t posted in a while—about 6 months—but I’m really struggling and need some help or advice. I thought I had healed from all of this, or at least I was doing so much better. I have never felt this before but it feels like I’m slipping back into something I can’t control. Right now, it feels like I’m stuck in a bad reality. It’s like I’m trapped with my dad in one reality, and I’m trying to get back to the other where I’m with my family, but I can’t. It’s so hard to explain, but everything around me feels unreal, and my mind keeps telling me I’m stuck. It feels so real, and I don’t know how to get out of it. It’s like I’ve been transported to another world, and I can’t break free. nd now I’m scared I’ll never come back to the “good” reality I had before. and I genuinely believe this. I’ve been struggling with these thoughts about spiritual realms, the devil, and spiritual warfare. My dad has always talked about these things, and he’s gone through psychosis before. He’s also had a history of doing a lot of drugs, and now I’m terrified that I might end up like him. I fear that I’m somehow becoming like him, trapped in that same mental space he’s been in. He talks about spiritual stuff that scares me, and I can’t shake the thought that I might be losing myself the same way he did. I know this might sound weird, but I feel like I’m getting closer to that line, and I don’t know how to stop it. I keep feeling like I’ll never come back to the way things were, like I’ll always be stuck in this distorted reality. I’m afraid of losing myself, especially in my faith. I believe in God, but my thoughts and fears about all of this are making it hard to feel connected to Him. I feel so distant from God right now, and it’s hard to see how this can change. Has anyone else experienced something like this—feeling like you’re trapped between realities, afraid of becoming someone you don’t want to be, or struggling with fears like this? How did you cope? I just need some hope that I can get through this and come back to a better place. I’m scared, and I feel like I can’t escape this. Any advice would really mean a lot right now.
I believe I have ROCD — at least, that’s what many people here have told me based on what I’ve shared — and I really need help, because I feel like I’m falling apart. I don’t know what I feel anymore. I don’t know what’s real. My thoughts come as loud, cold statements — not questions. They say things like: “Nothing is the same.” “You don’t love him.” “You’re just staying because you’re used to him.” And even though I know I’m supposed to let the thoughts pass and not engage with them — I can’t. I get stuck in them. I try to find answers, I ruminate, I check, I cry, I panic. Everyone says “love isn’t just a feeling” — and I know that. But… I still want to feel something. I want to feel warmth, or connection, or even just peace. It’s been so long since I felt anything like that. Now everything just feels empty or terrifying or cold. My brain only gives me negative interpretations. No memory brings me comfort anymore. Nothing feels like it used to. And the worst part is — it all feels true. Sometimes I think: “What if I’m just denying the truth?” “What if I’ve finally realized that I don’t love him, and I just don’t want to admit it?” This feels like the worst version of myself. I’m so confused and scared and tired. Even therapy didn’t help — my therapist said things that made it worse, and now I don’t know who or what to believe anymore. I just want help. I want to know how to face ROCD — if that’s what this really is. I want to believe I can feel love again. I don’t want to lose myself in this forever. Has anyone else felt like this? How did you start to get better? i cant even remember past good memories with him, my head tells me that i didnt love him and i was just “excited “ to have someone. We have 2 years together and i have been dealing with this for a year and a half.
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