Does anyone ever experience peaks in their SO-OCD? Like one minute you feel sure and you’re okay but it’s like once you have this hyper awareness that you’re not focusing on it you go back to obsessing and it builds up just to drop again. (Hope this make sense lol)
it sucks. i hate this fucking thing
Does anyone else find that SO-OCD is worse when your mind is idle or there’s no specific trigger. Wanted to see if this was just me. I find the more concrete the situation is - like interacting with a gay coworker, seeing gay posts or media I actually feel less anxious than if my mind is idle and I’m trying not to even think about sexuality.
I don't know if this counts, but I act like the sassy enby lesbian I am everywhere, but when my parents take me to church I am the straightest person on earth, and one single gay thought will make me stuck in a loophole of what I call my "gay away prayer" that my preacher taught us, so I'll think about this girl I like and how hot she is and then just me praying over and over again until I am on the verge of a mental breakdown.