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- 2y
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I feel like I’m faking my symptoms.. Feels like I’m lying to myself.. It’s tough morning so far and I don’t know what to do.
I feel like I’m faking my symptoms.. Feels like I’m lying to myself.. It’s tough morning so far and I don’t know what to do.
Me too. It’s the worst feeling in the world. Try to remember that your thoughts do no define who you are and that ultimately, you are in control of YOU. If you don’t want those thoughts, you don’t have to pay any attention to them or draw any conclusions. Easier said than done, trust me I know. But you can do this.
@Scott328 Thanks man. I’m doing my best.. but everything just feels real and all.
@Scott328 False attraction is the hardest part
I completely understand
@Myheadhurts35 I’m doing my best. But it gets me all the time and I don’t know what to feel. But I’m working on not caring
I went to bed one night in November, and I can't quite say what happened, but I believed that I had a "memory" from childhood. I won't discuss what, but I had "remembered" doing something sickeningly awful. This thing came to me almost as clear as a real memory. I remember thinking something along the lines of 'How could I forget doing something like that?' followed by a feeling of complete horror and terror. I have moments of "clarity" where I can't believe that I'm questioning doing this thing, and it appears obvious that it's false. But now, I'm more than often believing that I did. I am spending 24/7 fighting my head, and it's taking me to dark places. I know this is the worst thing to do, but you don't understand, if this is real then I am a monster and I can't just adopt the 'maybe I did, maybe I didn't approach'. I just can't. I have to know. I'm so scared. My entire life is on the line. I don't have anyone to talk to about this. Literally no one. I feel like I'm insane, like I'm a monster, like I'm hiding my true identity from everyone I love. Does this sound like False Memory? Or am I in denial, trying to convince myself this didn't happen? Why does it feel so real? And why do I have moments of clarity? I also had my first nightmare about it last night. Please someone help me.
Anyone else with HOCD get thoughts of like "people in denial try to distract themselves" or anything along those lines when just trying to move on from the thoughts. Having a pretty bad episode this morning at least anxiety wise.
i woke up with my heart racing this morning. i feel like the Lord wouldn’t treat me that way. i feel guilty and i feel like i just keep messing up at every step in my walk w the Lord. i literally just woke up feeling bad. i hadn’t even done anything. i had just opened my eyes!! i’m glad i got called into work so i can do something to take my mind off of the thoughts.
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