Actually ocd?

Does anybody feel as though what they are experiencing isn’t actually ocd but something our mind just tells us to keep us in denial? Like I’ve been struggling with these thoughts since freshman/sophomore year of high school and I am now currently a sophomore in college what I’ve been doing since then is just let the thoughts play in the background but it still very much so bothers me but I’m also questioning on whether or not it actually bothers me or I actually enjoy them in secret? Idk If I make sense but I sometimes worry if I have to spend the rest of my life like this… it’s very depressing. Idk what to feel anymore and sometimes can’t tell what my true thoughts are anymore 😕

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 67d ago

I hear you. I’ve thought the same stuff. I’ve had this theme on and off since 2013 (if I remember). What I do know is that it’s not too late to continue working on recovery. Sadly, when allowing the thoughts to be in the background, we still end up ruminating, at least I do. Which makes it harder to recover and keep OCD at bay. I’m learning now to truly just lean on my values the best I can.

Username: Acekid128

Date posted: 67d ago

Same here!!

Username: Ayana

Date posted: 67d ago

@Anonymous Me too! I don’t even realize it most the time