Religious OCD

I left Christianity years ago and had a theme that I did the “wrong” thing and would go to hell. I’ve struggled w this theme on and off although mostly got better. This is hard to explain, but when I was fanatically involved in Church and trying to be the perfect Christian, I had lots of intrusive thoughts around myself and others not being “Christian enough.” It was so intense it was like “people aren’t supposed to go to the gym in the morning, just sit in prayer.” I’m not supposed to be silly because it’s not “Christ like.” Anyways, the thoughts I had when I was “Christian” have come back, even though I don’t live that way of life anymore. It’s not only really disturbing but confusing because I don’t know why my content of thoughts shifted back to when I “was Christian” and confuses me on if I now really believe in Christianity again and that’s why the content of my thoughts shifted. I’ve been doing my best to treat it like I would any other theme and accept uncertainty but it’s been so difficult and the thoughts are so annoying and I don’t know why they bother me so much if I’m not actually Christian anymore.

"Pure" OCD

Acekid128

Date posted: 2y

Lots of people go throught this wether you have OCD or not, I ahev them too!!! I'm an atheist and non-religioud for as long as I can remember, and I have these thoughts to. Lost of people who have left their faith have some old feelings that love within them, especially if they have been very devout. Give yourself some time to transition into you non-christian mindset and treat you intrusive thoughts as intrusive, because they are. Hope that helps💙✨️💫

Lean.Into.it

Date posted: 2y

@Acekid128 It did leave me, I left church over 10 years ago, that’s why it’s messing w me that the types of thoughts have come back.

Acekid128

Date posted: 2y

Hi! I know you guys mean well, but instead of pressuring someone to go back to something they clearly didn't want to be apart of, be supportive. This individual has OCD, and the thoughts you have don't mean anything, nor do your feelings. This individual left years ago, that's a good indicator that they are fine with who they are now. I really don't want to be rude or anything, I'm glad you guys are trying to be helpful, but not everyone has the same beliefs. And making the assumptions that anyone who "belives" can fix a non-existent hole in their heart, is assuming the individual is unfulfilled in some way. Not everyone needs to have a faith to be fulfilled, if you love God, great!, and if you don't belive in him' that's OK too!!! 💫✨️💙✨️💫

David Trejo

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

It’s clear everyone has a God shaped hole in they’re heart . What will you try to fill it with???

clevermind

Date posted: 2y

Amen!

Nica

Date posted: 2y

You can still care about your past religion and not believe anymore, and that’s why this theme won’t go away. Or you’re secretly scared there’s still such a thing as god and you don’t want to go to hell, so it’s lingering. The moment I became an atheist, all my religious themes for OCD went away. So, it might be a lingering issue for you.

Acekid128

Date posted: 2y

I agree, OCD latches onto things you care about. Most people still care because they have memories of all the people that they made friends woth, and all the positive things, but because it's been with them for so long, it still lingers. It's normal, and will fade woth time once you're fully comfortable with your life now. 💫✨️💙✨️💫

norx

Date posted: 2y

I feel like God is a beautiful thing but the way people talk about him and spread this word is what is so damaging. Do you feel you suffer from religious abuse? It can be moderate to severe

Cantal

Date posted: 25w

Theme switch: Scrupolosity

OCD has decided to latch onto my religion (Christianity) and I find myself doubting my belief in Jesus Christ. Yet when I research, I even find myself doubting the atheistic and agnostic approach as well. I’ve been a Christian since I was 13, growing up in a non-Christian in truth but nominally Christian household. This is rough. Any advice?

sanshine

Date posted: 14w

Religious OCD

I used to have religious OCD. Still kinda do. Accidentally thought something bad about God once, panicked thought something bad about the Holy Spirit. Fell into doom. This was recently after recomitting myself to Christ. Since then I pretty much gave up. Unfortunately, it also led to me compromising my morals many times because I figured I was going to hell anyway. I wish I knew what OCD was then. I think it would have saved me a lot of pain. I no longer have a relationship with God, and fear I never will again.

Cammy123

Date posted: 6w

Religious OCD

So about 2 years ago I gave my life to Jesus. I've always been a "Christian" but never truly lived liked one. Honestly never truly felt love for them until 2 years ago. It was the best couple months of my life!!! I felt so happy and loved and unstoppable! I thought this fire for God & Jesus will never burn out. One day I had a thought about is God real? It bothered me so bad and I went into a massive spiral. Doubting everything. My faith. if I was good enough. Am I really saved? Do I have enough faith? Is my doubt real? Is it too much? Have these blasphemous made God not want me anymore? Or Jesus? :( But I knew I was and that they were real! I know I've heard them. Then I started having horrible blasphemous thoughts but then it would go back to doubting thoughts then back to the blasphemous ones. I hated the thoughts and doubts. The thoughts are so mean towards God, Jesus & HS. It’s anywhere from evil thoughts to cussing thoughts to rejection thoughts/denying. Demonic thoughts. Literally anything bad you could think of! Even thoughts of if I really love them or wanna follow them. I learned about OCD from what I've looked up but I've been dealing with this for about 2 years now. It's hard. I doubt if it’s OCD. Definitely feel like I'm trapped or my faith isn't the same. Which makes me sad because I want my faith! I feel like I've gotten lazy and honestly that I don't deserve them or am "too far gone" from them. I feel like idk how to be a Christian or how to have faith or just exist tbh. I wanna love God & Jesus! I want faith! I just feel kinda stuck. Has anyone gone through this or has advice or tips?

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