Struggling with violent thoughts and urges towards loved ones due to OCD.

Thank you for speaking to this. I completely know what you mean. But the fact that you don’t want these thoughts and and they are ego dystonic is proof that they are just OCD thoughts.

You said you love your family. This is OCD . It directs mainly towards those we care about and is totally opposite of our desires. I know as have the exact same thing. I spoke to mental health team today and they told me the fact I am so very distressed and anxious points to the fact that these are just thoughts not wishes. Unfortunately ocd makes us question ourselves constantly. When the thoughts arise even though I find it really hard, I try to let them be there but to pay them no attention.

I’m sorry to hear that you’re going through this. OCD can come in the form of feelings and urges as well as thoughts. Regardless of the form that they present themselves in; they’re all still classified as intrusive because as you said yourself about loving your family and not wanting to harm them. OCD is a liar and it tries to make you think that you want to have your intrusive thoughts, feelings and even urges. OCD is also a bully and unfortunately it feeds of you being scared. My recommendation would be to stand up to OCD and take your power back by sitting with the discomfort of your thoughts, feelings and/or urges. It’s easier said than done, but it is accomplishable. Also, always keep in mind that OCD tends to attack what you value most, but not limited too that only. Finally, focus on living your life based upon your morals and values. You’re not alone! Sending love, compassion and support while you’re suffering from the beast and battling the monster that is OCD 💌

It’s making me question if I could actually go through with acting on them and if I would like it