I don't get reassured like I used to. I believe it's a sign of growth that I do not but things are more difficult feeling when I'm not reassured. Most days I feel like depressed, stressed and anxious. I miss feeling the ways I felt before this shit started... normal. At the same time I am so grateful that I have grown in the ways I have through this pain I feel. I do wish I knew 2hat was truly good for me and what I truly need to do to continue to grow. For me this is regarding my suppoaive ROCD. Quite frankly it has been very difficult for me to have faith that it actually exists. This is me venting. If anyone else like to talk I am here.

Relationship OCD

Brendan =]

Date posted: 2y

Hey. I’m having a setback in my ROCD, too. It’s tough because we’re so busy with prepping stuff to send out for Christmas which limits time to lay and sit with feelings and thoughts, or to do exposures. I’m having trouble believing that it’s not genuine chemistry issues. It’s painful and ERP therapy treatment is helping, but intense doubts and mild doubts both make it difficult to let loose or find happiness. Both mild and intense waves will engender depression, body tightness, and an unshakable knot of anxiety. It’s hard. >_> What were you referring to when you said “Quite frankly it has been very difficult for me to have faith it actually exists”? We’re here for you. Recovery is a one-day-at-a-time and a one-step-at-a-time process. We’ll get through this together. =]

JLG323

Date posted: 2y

I appreciate you saying so man. I've been going through this since June of 2018. The first year was with my first kids mom and it was the 4th year if us being together that it started. It truly was a toxic realationship though. After she left I started to see my wife today but the same thought patterns and feelings started with her almost immediately that I had with my first kids mom. It's been 3 years of this with her and there's no doubt t in me that she is exactly the type of partner that I need and want in my life but that dowsbt stop me from feeling damn near horrible most days. When. I say it's hard to have faith I mean that it's hard for me to have faith that ROCD is an actual type of OCD and that all of us who believe that we suffer from it are not just lying to our selves and that we're using ROCD as a crutch to justify not taking the hard step of ending our relationships.

Brendan =]

Date posted: 2y

@JLG323 I hear you. It’s so tough and so painful since OCD uses the same brain chemicals and fear mechanisms as fears that are genuine. I think with all subtypes though, it’s common to doubt that it is even OCD. People with POCD think the issue is they’re genuinely attracted to kids, people with SOCD genuinely think they might be gay; you get the idea. It’s worth noting that people recover and get past these thoughts and, with the right treatment, they can come out on the other side, which does show that it’s not often a case of doubts being actually true. Have you tried ERP treatment therapy?

JLG323

Date posted: 2y

I have. I do them now with my therapist. Its the one thought I just cant swim to walt go of. I try. But its's fucking difficult man. I I wanna stop feeling like this.

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