marieleanne
- Date posted
- 2y
Rocd
Does anyone ever be like what if I’m only staying with my partner bc im just to scared to be alone and don’t wanna start over
paulaekorrepaulaekorre
- Date posted
- 2y
Me!! Such difficult feelings and thoughts to handle...
Anonymous<3Anonymous<3
- Date posted
- 2y
I get you, I told two close friends and my therapist thats all. It’s something no one else but us who experience this will ever understand. My partner doesn’t know either. Also, I did go through a period where id look at Myself in the mirror and i didnt recognize myself or my boyfriend like you said grit like a complete stranger. It went away though. Your experience is temporary just hang in there and keep a positive mind even when it seems like there’s no light at the end of the tunnel:)
Anonimo05Anonimo05
- Date posted
- 2y
@Yali<3 Wow yes, i wake up so anxious. Like i start calling my bf because i feel something might happen. In the morning is when i experience the most amount of anxiety idk why, but it makes me not want to go to work. That’s when in the more convinced i have to leave the relationship because im feeling this way. I get triggered bu watxhing stuff online about love etc, like if you feel x or y way you need to leave the relationship, or if you know you cant give that person what they deserve then leave, oh lord it’s very triggering.
Anonymous<3Anonymous<3
- Date posted
- 2y
@Anonimo05 Omg when i started, I had bad anxiety in the morning too. It was kind of like I was sleeping and when my body is about to wake up my heart started racing and the intrusive thoughts Would start to come. Was it similar for you too?
Anonimo05Anonimo05
- Date posted
- 2y
@Yali<3 Yes, same way for me. I woke up today and was like ok everything is fine and then boom all the thoughts came in. It’s so difficult because last night i was crying so bad, i was literally thinking wow this is how im going to be feeling if we break up right now, crying non stop. I tried to do my bike for 45 after i finished thats when i started crying, im so scared because i constantly think im using him, plus i did some mistakes in the relationship so it’s like ocd has evidence that i dont actually love him. So im constantly reminded of that, and im scared i feel horrible
YouarenotyourOCDYouarenotyou...
- Date posted
- 5w
@Anonimo05 I currently am struggling with that. Thought of what if I’m using the girl I’m talking to because I’m lonely or because I just wanna fill a void in my heart. What if I actually don’t like her
Kate'sOCDKate'sOCD
- Date posted
- 2y
Yes! It sucks
Anonimo05Anonimo05
- Date posted
- 2y
Me!
Anonymous<3Anonymous<3
- Date posted
- 2y
Yes ahhhhhh
Anonimo05Anonimo05
- Date posted
- 2y
@Yali<3 What has helped you, when it comes to managing those thoughts?
Anonymous<3Anonymous<3
- Date posted
- 2y
@Anonimo05 Honestly I sit with them. And every time im with my partner and I get a thought I engage more in the moment and remind myself im not ocd. Love is a choice and I choose him.
Anonimo05Anonimo05
- Date posted
- 2y
@Yali<3 Thanks. Yes i see a lot of people saying to just sit with the thoughts. But i feel like im lying to myself like what if im with him because i feel sorry for him and i would feel bad if we break up, what if im just using him, or what if i really dont love him and im in denial. This interferes a lot with my day to day, like literally im not able to go to sleep because of my thoughts and anxiety.
Anonymous<3Anonymous<3
- Date posted
- 2y
@Anonimo05 It gets easier hang in there. I was sick to the point I couldn’t eat and lost a lit of weight. Expose yourself to do things that make you uncomfortable. Show ocd that it doesn’t control you, you control it. Its really freaking hard yo go through this but it will get better. We just gotta learn to live with it.
Anonimo05Anonimo05
- Date posted
- 2y
@Yali<3 Thanks, I’m glad you responded. It’s so triggering to talk to people who dont understand ocd😵💫 my ocd is so weird that i sometimes dont recognize my bf, it’s so crazy!!! So it makes me anxious the fact that sometimes i feel like i dont know him, it also happens with me like idk who i am anymore, or feel like im not living. I guess all the anxiety/depression/ocd life
Anonimo05Anonimo05
- Date posted
- 2y
@Yali<3 What are your most common rocd thoughts
YouarenotyourOCDYouarenotyou...
- Date posted
- 5w
@Anonimo05 Same here
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- 24w
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- Date posted
- 18w
Rocd
Heyy so has anybody ever experience in rocd like ur scared that what if u liked somebody else or had a crush on somebody else even tho u never had no romantic or sexual feelings for anybody else only ur bf but u still question urself?
isabella123456
- Date posted
- 16w
Rocd
Im scared that if I start to think it too much, I will start to believe it, and it becomes my reality. I always have thoughts like, “Do I love him, what if I lose feelings, how longs is this going to last, when will these thoughts finally go away, is he the one for me, is this how love feels like or am I just convincing myself?” I start to search things up to make myself feel better but the longest that works for is a few hours and then that gut wrenching feeling comes back. I love him I’m sure of it, but then why do I feel like this? I know if I didn’t love someone I would let them go and would t even fight for it or try to get better, but for him I’m trying ever second of everyday and sometimes I just feel so hopeless. I can’t afford a therapist and I’m too busy to talk to one. I don’t know what to do or how to feel, sometimes I just feel numb and I hate it, sometimes I feel like crying but can’t, and most the time I don’t feel jealous anymore and that scares me because I’m a jealous person. Then I get thoughts and reminders of my ex. Not in a way that I like them but the hatred and the trauma and pain they left me with. The mental, verbal and physical abuse. Sometimes my current relationship reminds me of him and why I shouldn’t be in one because I always fall into this deep hole that feels impossible to get out of. I just get so scared.
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