Rocd

@Yali<3 Wow yes, i wake up so anxious. Like i start calling my bf because i feel something might happen. In the morning is when i experience the most amount of anxiety idk why, but it makes me not want to go to work. That’s when in the more convinced i have to leave the relationship because im feeling this way. I get triggered bu watxhing stuff online about love etc, like if you feel x or y way you need to leave the relationship, or if you know you cant give that person what they deserve then leave, oh lord it’s very triggering.

@Anonimo05 Omg when i started, I had bad anxiety in the morning too. It was kind of like I was sleeping and when my body is about to wake up my heart started racing and the intrusive thoughts Would start to come. Was it similar for you too?

@Yali<3 Yes, same way for me. I woke up today and was like ok everything is fine and then boom all the thoughts came in. It’s so difficult because last night i was crying so bad, i was literally thinking wow this is how im going to be feeling if we break up right now, crying non stop. I tried to do my bike for 45 after i finished thats when i started crying, im so scared because i constantly think im using him, plus i did some mistakes in the relationship so it’s like ocd has evidence that i dont actually love him. So im constantly reminded of that, and im scared i feel horrible

@Anonimo05 I currently am struggling with that. Thought of what if I’m using the girl I’m talking to because I’m lonely or because I just wanna fill a void in my heart. What if I actually don’t like her

@Yali<3 What has helped you, when it comes to managing those thoughts?

@Anonimo05 Honestly I sit with them. And every time im with my partner and I get a thought I engage more in the moment and remind myself im not ocd. Love is a choice and I choose him.

@Yali<3 Thanks. Yes i see a lot of people saying to just sit with the thoughts. But i feel like im lying to myself like what if im with him because i feel sorry for him and i would feel bad if we break up, what if im just using him, or what if i really dont love him and im in denial. This interferes a lot with my day to day, like literally im not able to go to sleep because of my thoughts and anxiety.

@Anonimo05 It gets easier hang in there. I was sick to the point I couldn’t eat and lost a lit of weight. Expose yourself to do things that make you uncomfortable. Show ocd that it doesn’t control you, you control it. Its really freaking hard yo go through this but it will get better. We just gotta learn to live with it.

@Yali<3 Thanks, I’m glad you responded. It’s so triggering to talk to people who dont understand ocd😵‍💫 my ocd is so weird that i sometimes dont recognize my bf, it’s so crazy!!! So it makes me anxious the fact that sometimes i feel like i dont know him, it also happens with me like idk who i am anymore, or feel like im not living. I guess all the anxiety/depression/ocd life

@Yali<3 What are your most common rocd thoughts

@Anonimo05 Same here