Sup guys, I have a little problem. I’m in a relationship that’s unfortunately plagued by my rocd atm. Last night, a guy I’ve known since I was 10 and had a huge crush on and wanted to go out with etc etc messaged me. I was completely infatuated with this bloke when I was younger and he never really gave me the time of day, hasn’t even spoken to me for over a year until last night. We used to be very close friends when we were younger but now we’re anything but. The problem is, he’s made moves on me in the past and my anxiety got the best of me before anything could really happen. Now I’m in a relationship with a guy who I really really do love, but my thoughts keep thinking, is this other guy the right one for me? Why do I feel more intense feelings with him? Is that just my anxiety or actual feelings? What if he’s left his girlfriend and messaged me because I’m better for him and he’s realised we’re meant to be together? All I can think of is if I’m in the right relationship now and it scares me. I’ve stupidly been checking my feelings and comparing and imagining scenarios with both to see which feels right and which makes me feel good, and it’s a nightmare because it feels nice when I think of my boyfriend and then get tingly when I think of the other guy and my heart races, and I just can’t tell if it’s my anxiety doing that because it tends to do it any time I panic or get nervous. I love my boyfriend, I’m very comfortable with him, it’s as though we’re already a domestic couple and I love it. However, my rocd has been kicking up fusses about how much I love him, if he loves me, thinking of his exes etc, and now I can’t stop thinking about this guy I was infatuated with who spoke to me properly for the first time in years, and it’s really really messed me up. I know my current boyfriend is so much better for me, he really helps with my mental health, he loves me, he does all sorts for me and he looks after me, the other guy would never do that. I just need some help on what to do and I know we’re not meant to ask for it, but I just need some reassurance that I’ve made the right choice to choose my current boyfriend over this bloke who I’d only ever have uncertainty with, I’m fairly certain it’s only been lust with him for as long as I’ve known him, but how can I tell? So sorry for the long post, but this kept me up all night last night and I’m exhausted and really really need help