Is this still ocd?

is this still ocd? Hi all. Last week my ocd has been ramping up. Started with some horror theme and moved to a sensational theme. But now it latched onto something ive never had before. It has not latched onto any theme actually the only thing right now happening is that there is this thought or feeling, not sure how to describe it, but whenever this feeling or thought arises it nullifies all my confidence, motivation, progression, it just takes out all the energy and positivity and replaces it with this feeling of endless sadness, despair, depression, nothingness, this happens within a split Second whenever i think for example; no matter what ill keep trying! And then boom that feeling or thought takes over and its all gone. It's almost as if it's something that will always he there, a 'thing' inside nullifiying anything positive, helpfull, but even emotions of love. I have to emphasize that wahat comes out with this feeling everytime again is the thought; no one in the worldnhas ever hwd thisbweird experience before, its just me. Yes I know other people have ocd, but my mind tells me no one has ever had this 'inner' part which cannot be described because it roes not feel like a thought, an emotion or whatever, just a 'thing' that is there and always will be there. I mean ive had many ocd themes but this would bot categorize under any of those themes, so how can i know this really is ocd?;ive searched the web and forums trough many...many Posts and none of them revolve around this undescribable thing, or whatever it is? Whenever I try and label this thing for myself just as I'm trying in this post, it steps up its game and gives this feeling of nullifying my effort describing it, it basically does the same it does with other things it gives out this feeling of sadness, desperation, depression etc whenever i try to describe it wo i can ask others to help me. Up until now while writing this it feels like this thing keeps going deeper and deeper just to make sure it cant be identified. Am i making any sense? or am i losing my mind?

Username: Shauna PichetteShauna Pichette

User type: Therapist

Date posted: 2y ago

OCD triggers are usually thought of as being thoughts, images, ideas, or urges. However, triggers can also be sensations and emotions! Triggers can be literally anything. If you are working with a therapist, they can help to give you the tools to address this.

Username: Ocdppd Ocdppd

Date posted: 2y ago

Hm sounds something like I’m going thru I think not sure how to explain it but it’s like if whatever I hear like on the news or somewhere on TikTok I feel scared of it or feel like it’s going to happen to me. Ah hm for example in October I was watching pov of people with schizophrenia and then all of a sudden I thought I had it or had symptoms of it.

Username: winnie_the_tiggerwinnie_the_t...

Date posted: 2y ago

I kind of relate, I would describe my feeling as more existential dread or just depression though. But my advice would be to stop trying to label it, just let the feeling happen, notice it’s there, and attempt to move on. From your description OCD has latched on to this feeling and is making more of it than what it is. Use some breathing techniques, use your OCD coping techniques, and ask for help when you need it. You could also try to use some “reset” techniques to reset ur sympathetic nervous system. Take some ice and hold it in ur hand for a moment or put it on ur chest or the back of your neck. This helps me with anxiety and derealization, I’m curious to know if it could help u in these situations as well. Stay strong❤️

Username: Asiul79Asiul79

Date posted: 2y ago

Omg I feel you so much. My ocd keeps telling me I’m the only one who doesn’t have a cure, that no matter how good life is and how many resources I have, that I’m stuck forever with the existential “what ifs”. I don’t even know how to describe it. Like if something bad happens I suffer, but if something good happens my OCD is triggered asking “what if” this is not reality? What is reality? And I’m so scared of going crazy. Sorry I don’t know how to help, but I’m here with you

Username: Ocdppd Ocdppd

Date posted: 2y ago

@Asiul79 Hey! You’re real this is real. I am real and I am going thru the same thing you are. It drives me crazy sometimes everyday I like in a “what if”

Username: Asiul79Asiul79

Date posted: 2y ago

@Ocdppd Let’s be real or not real together haha❤️ thank you for your comment

Username: NicaNica

Date posted: 2y ago

Yes indeed

Username: MakingocdmybitchMakingocdmyb...

Date posted: 2y ago

I relate!

Username: Catlove9

Date posted: 1y ago

Does not feel like OCD

I am not sure how to even describe what I am going through. And even typing this, I feel like a liar and feel like this is not even OCD. I have Harm OCD. I have had the thoughts, urges, and images. It has felt so real and so scary. I have been able to use ERP for all of that and was mainly successful. But now something new is happening and it does not feel like it is OCD. I cannot even put into words what it feels like, but I will try. It feels like the thoughts have overtaken me and now I’m this evil person who will act on the thoughts. My anxiety is not super high, which scares me because it feels like I have gone too far into the dark side. It feels like I have had these thoughts too long and they are all I can think about. It feels like I’m no longer myself and my identity has changed. I feel very weird. Like not even myself. It feels like there is this dark cloud following me and I try to use ERP but it does not feel like it is working. Not sure if I am ruminating or not because I have no idea what is even going on. I am living my life still, but it feels like it is just a matter of time until I snap. I am very scared right now because I’m not sure what this means and I cannot figure it out. I wish I could explain it perfectly but I do not even know how to put it into words.

Harm OCD

Username: Catlove9

Date posted: 1y ago

OCD coming in differently?

I do not even know how to explain what I am experiencing right now. It feels like I am not even myself and it feels like the thoughts are stronger than ever before and that they are more compelling? But I also do not feel like I’m inside my body so it’s making it extra scary. I’ve never experienced OCD like this before. I’ve been doing a lot better overall but now with this, I’m feeling doomed to just be what my thoughts say. It feels like I’ve lost my mind if I am being honest and every thing is triggering me. It does not feel like OCD this time. Any advice?

Username: richardmilly...

Date posted: 49w ago

Im just surviving atp

Ive gotten over some bad ocd episodes that have lasted months and months and i was so so happy when i realized it was achievable to overcome such an illness,but this time around it feels different i thought i had gone through everything but no theres always more,theres always the next intrusive thought,my intrusive thought this time that got me back in the dark ocd hole was,”what if i just stopped thinking”,it sounds so stupid and i didnt pay it much mind at first but then it popped back into my head and it told me “but what if everytime im about to think about something,i realize it and stop thinking about what i was thinking about.”this has made me feel so alienated in life,life feels grey and dull ive never had a thought stick around for so long its been 3 months and i havent heard anyone have anything similar too this i wake up every day scared of whag else my mind can bring to me to torment me and its so depressing in here.i cry a lot now thinking about the old me i used to be when i was happy and ocd free but I genuinely dont think i can live like this for long.Sorry for writing a whole essay but its the only way i could express what im feeling right now plz say something below.

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