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Twitch’s Death
Anyone else with suicidal OCD super triggered by the recent news? Just know that I am sending love and light to all of you!❤️❤️
Anyone else with suicidal OCD super triggered by the recent news? Just know that I am sending love and light to all of you!❤️❤️
Wow, I think if nothing else this thread shows us that we are not alone and once again, this is just OCD trying to lie to us! It’s not reality!👍 From someone who has only had the theme of suicidal OCD, I will share some tips that kind of work for me when super triggered 1. Stop ruminating by acknowledging the thought, “Yes, thought I see, but I will get back to you in a hour, I have some things to do”. You are accepting the thought but moving on with your value based life even if it doesn’t “feel” good in the moment 2. Remind yourself, that once again, this is OCD and do not engage with the theme, let the emotions come and go 3. Stay off the internet. Not to avoid but to avoid the temptation of going down the rabbit hole of trying to learn more about the individual and see if you could do something like that to. It will just continue the cycle of rumination and anxiety Those are just a few tips that have worked for me. This too shall pass guys, we can do it!!💪👍❤️
@Anonymous Love this! Thank you so much. I’ve been trying to do the first 2 points with the themes I’ve already had / have which is health and harm. The 3rd point is sooo me it’s crazy. Whether it be a story i read about someone with a health condition or what happened yesterday morning with Twitch i find myself continuously reading stories and comments to see if i relate in anyway. For example he looked so happy and when i smile i think i look happy. Am i not really happy? Like i don’t feel depressed but what if i am? All of these thoughts emerged simply by reading his story and comments surrounding it. I feel like I’m digging a rabbit hole and i need to stop before it gets deeper. Thank you 💕
@Anonymous Thank you!!! Thank you soo much
@Anon17 OMG this is exactly me today, exactly
@Anon17 Of course, happy to share what has worked for me in the past! And yes number 3, I had to learn the hard way, I classically go down the rabbit hole and then check to see if I feel depressed which classically then makes you start to feel like you might be, it’s a cycle that never ends🤦♀️🤣 So just not starting down that path, is a great way of breaking that cycle!😊 I know you can do it too!!❤️❤️
@Anonymous Yesss exactly where I’m at right now
@Anonymous Sorry you are going through it too, but if we continue to not engage it passes!💪😊❤️
Yes very
@Anonymous How are you doing?
It’s hard! Trying not to ruminate or read about it challenging! How are you doing?❤️ We can do this! We are not our OCD!💪👍
@Anonymous Yes exactly stay strong you’ve come this far 💜💜💜💜💜💜
Yep that’s what started mine again
@OcdNutball Sending you all the love you got this 💜💜💜
I’ve never struggled with suicidal ocd before this news broke but now i feel like my mind is being pushed into a new theme because my mind knows how much it bothers me. It triggered me beyond belief and i am terrified to experience suicidal thoughts. Here’s to hoping I’m just in my head and in the heat of the moment and that the intrusive thoughts don’t get bolder. Sending you much love as well 💕
OH GOODNESS YES! This theme is the hardest for me to get over. I’ve been stuck in this loop for 2 years now. It has gotten easier but news like this makes me feel as though I’m starting from square 1 again. It’s so hard and heartbreaking.
Thank you sooo much it’s so nice to know we aren’t alone in this!!!!
Of course! Happy to share! And yes, we are never alone and there is so much hope!!❤️👍💪
YES!!! Has trigged me so much! Sending sooooo much love to you!!
OMG yeeessss!!!! Thank you soo much, I been doing great but yesterday when I saw this omg it was such a trigger!!!
@Anonymous It was a huge trigger for me too! But we have this, one step at a time! We are in this together!!💪😊❤️
I’m scared I’m going to want to do the same thing :( tho I’m not suicidal I feel like one day my brain will turn against me
@Ocdppd I feel like one day I won’t be able to take it
@OcdNutball You gotta keep going 🫶🏼 you will make it, everything takes time.
I hope everyone is doing well today, and for those of you who are struggling my thoughts and prayers are with you. Just know your moment of peace is coming soon. I think it’s important that we post / come on here every now and again even when we are not in a moment of pure panic and fear. Remember that we are not our thoughts as hard as it is to understand. Remember that OCD makes it feel “real” and that OCD will always make us think the most inappropriate things and the most inappropriate times. Remember that all humans, have thoughts that come and go and as hard as it can be to understand you are not alone in your thoughts that feel so unique. For me I get a lot of anxiety from thoughts I used to have , which of course makes them return in full throttle. The more I push them away the more they come back. And those thought makes new connections to those things in my life I value. OCD is a pain but it’s important that as much as you hate it you learn to be compassionate and understanding that it’s there to “help” you no matter how bad it does it job sometimes. Stay strong everyone
Trigger Warning: Suicide I’m 21(Female) just for reference Anyone else struggling with OCD so much to where you feel so isolated, confused, burnout, suffering & in astonishing emotional pain & agony. I promise yall aren’t alone in the feelings. I promise you there is someone going through similar, obviously our lives aren’t identical, but our struggles can be very similar. It’s even harder dealing with trauma, split parents, abusive parent(s), a sick parent at the same time as all of this. It feels like God or the universe just WANTS you to struggle. Like it’s punishment for something you did as a kid or teenager. I’m dealing with all this exactly. Sometimes I just want support. So I hope this message can be support for someone struggling too & hope it helps them be able to breathe a little easier & gives them strength to go on another day. I just would like to mention if you have access to therapy take advantage of it. The therapists are not there to judge you but I promise it’s a them issue & you’re not a horrible person. When I used to think of suicide often I started to think less “doomsdayish” & realized that I wont know how my life will turn out if I just give up. If you give up you won’t ever know. Whether your situation will improve, & all the fear in your heart just gone. You could miss out on that freedom and happiness you’ve been waiting for in this current life we are living. One last thing I want to point out that I’ve thought about is that we don’t know how many more people are out there struggling with this. I think they’re maybe afraid of judgement. Basically what I’m implying is I feel like there are so many others out there who don’t want to speak up & are struggling with this. Everything on their conscious being afraid to even write it down. I just feel in my heart that there are others who keep these issues to themselves. I think I feel it in my heart because that was me once. Feeling like my story was different, afraid at thought of even telling a stranger(therapist) who could judge me. I did not want to be perceived badly. I’m 21 years old & wish I had the courage to speak up sooner I feel like I could’ve started seeing the light at the end of the tunnel sooner but that’s okay. Speak up for you, you do not have to wake up in fear everyday or contemplate suicide everyday. Even if it feels like you’re your only cheerleader. Sending a virtual hug to all because I know what it’s like to just want to be held & told that everything is going to work out. you never know what others are going through, be the person who isn’t afraid to extend your heart to others, try & breathe a little more, take care of yourselves, remember you aren’t alone no matter your situation, stay strong To the suicidal person reading this, you’re resilient & strong. Sending a virtual hug❤️.
I’ve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didn’t realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didn’t. Here’s where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew 🔫) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when I’m not looking so I didn’t know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldn’t get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didn’t have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like it’s getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst it’s been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I can’t handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times I’m getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I can’t deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. I’m so saddened by this. It’s like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I can’t stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvements…
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