hello !! usually i dissapear for like three months and come back, but i’m gonna try to stay active lol :) i’m ingrid, and i had SEVEREEE sexual orientation for two years, and it’s been a year or so of post-recovery !! i used exposure and response therapy, so if anyone would like to ask anything i would LOVE to answer !
OMG CONGRATS
@OCDumb >:( I LITERALLY REMEMBER YOU EVERY TIME I GO ON HERE OH EM GEE 🫶🏼🫶🏼
@ingie ♡ AUGH HOW ARE YOU
@OCDumb >:( i’m honestly so great !!! i got an internship in psychology and cognitive research and i’ve been LOVING it :) plus i’ve been having the time of my life with my bf lol. how about you? how’s the memes going !!!
@ingie ♡ !!! That’s awesome! I’m good, just about to hit finals. My boyfriend and I have also been vibing, and I started listening to The Magnus Archives, so I’ve been totally into that. :D
@OCDumb >:( i’m so not ready for finals…. 🙏🙏 manifesting…. and ooo what’s the magnus archives? might have to check it out :)
@ingie ♡ AGH it’s a horror podcast centered around an institute that inspects the supernatural. It’s REALLY GOOD
@OCDumb >:( WAIT THATS SO FUNKY IM GONNA CHECK THAT OUT 🧛♀️🧛♀️ nightmares will keep me up for studying better than caffeine will anyways….
@ingie ♡ AHAHAHHA I THINK YOULL LIKE IT :)
how were you able to fully accept uncertainty? i feel like i’m halfway there but there’s some part of me that balks at the idea that i can truly never know. also congratulations on your recovery!!🥳💞💞💞
@ocdgirl123 thank you so much :)) !! honestly, it takes a lot of exposure. there’s often a moment of realization that goes… “this is ok, and i could live like this” and everything gets easier after that !! for me, uncertainty was short-lived, and i changed my label pretty quickly after my recovery, but to GET me to recovery it’s just a lot of exposure — don’t stress about it 💌💌
@ingie ♡ You changed your label?
@Anonymous yeah !!
@ingie ♡ i’m happy you were able to discover yourself outside of your ocd!! thank you for the advice and i wish you and your bf the best!!💞💞💞
@ingie ♡ Your not hetero? This triggered me?
@Anonymous i was never straight. at the start of my so-ocd journey i identified as lesbian.
@Anonymous hi! i understand how scary so-ocd but it may be (i suffer with it myself) but it’s inappropriate to presume that all sufferers are straight. remember that it can affect anyone across the spectrum and this person is being very kind by giving advice! i hope healing finds us both soon <3
@ocdgirl123 Yes, I understand that. I didn’t mean any offense.
@ocdgirl123 My apologize
@polishgirl i identify as bisexual :)
How does it feel on the other side?
@Jlou97 it was hard for a bit, honestly. i still have a lot of bad memories and trauma from so much ocd… 🙁 it took a lot of social relearning to put myself back in a good position, but i definitely celebrated !!! i got out of a bad relationship and entered a beautiful, healthy one, as well as getting a job at such a young age in the field and helping others because of how passionate i am 💌 recovery is beautiful, and it’s so possible for ANYONE !!!
@ingie ♡ Sometimes I'm afraid I'll never recover, ever since I became aware of attraction when I was a little boy I was always girl crazy. And then all of a sudden I got anxiety that I was just faking it or repressing something. But then I'd look at girls I was attracted and just know I was attracted to them, and then eventually I found out what OCD is, and here I am now.
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@pureohasnoperks this is so SWEET i’m literally crying to my bf right now thank you so much oh my god 🫶🏼🫶🏼 and you’re absolutely right it was not linear at all :) ! my recovery was all done by myself using erp and i only got a therapist afterwards to process all of the bad experiences and trauma from it….. but i started erp five months after my ocd manifested itself into my life. for the first week, my ocd would cut down 10% each day, and i was so hyped. after that, it was really gradual, which caused me to relapse and try again almost half a year later… a really good mindset to have is to keep a simple and positive attitude. did you do your erp practices? did you do them well, and tried your absolute best? congrats, you succeeded !!
@pureohasnoperks he thinks you’re really sweet :) and i totally understand because mine was the same way !! here’s some ideas : — do erp once a week for an hour, then twice a week for an hour, etc. and slowly increase the time !! no problem with starting small at alllll. — write down common thoughts you get, and do erp practices on them later. if you notice you worry a lot about if a certain gender looks attractive, do erp on it at a certain time. — make erp practices fun! i’m a really aesthetic person, so i would make my account themed around the color scheme of the sexuality’s flag that i was obsessing over. i really hope any of these speak out to you :)
Hey everyone. I wanted to share my story and some of the things I have/am experiencing in my journey with OCD- particularly with Sexual Orientation OCD. My goal is not to use this as a means for reassurance for myself or for any other, rather as to be a reminder for myself and you all that you are NOT alone. No matter what you are experiencing you aren’t alone, and we have all gone through the same thoughts and feelings as you, in whatever form they may have been. For personal reasons I will not share my name, but I do want to share about me and my journey with what has truly been one of the hardest things I’ve ever experienced. I am a 24 year old female and for as long as I’ve remembered I’ve always been a “worrier”. My dad used to tell me that worrying will be the fastest way I’d die lol. Oh! How I wish I could go back to those days of just simply worry. For the past few years I have struggled with what I now know is intrusive thoughts. But, luckily for me they were a little calmer than what I’ve experienced now. They were the occasional worrying that my boyfriend died but I would get over it rather quickly. Well, in may of 2024, I had just graduated college, was about to get married and about to move out. So, that triggered some switch in my brain and thus began this horrible disease of OCD. My main type has been SO-OCD but I have found some moments that I’ve also struggled with ROCD as well as some existential crisis OCD. I have unfortunately not been able to go to therapy because of money but I am on meds and have been using tips and tricks I’ve found online. My goal is to still go to therapy when I can find the right time. And I, like many of you have months of great “freedom” from the disease; and then, like I find myself now, fall back into its trap. I wanted to share some of the things I’ve experienced with this to see if y’all have experienced the same things and to let you know you are not alone. For reference, I am straight (I am happily married to my wonderful husband). 1. Thoughts from the past: I slightly remember having a thought that I’d be gay when I was around 12-13… that was around the time I actually first figured out what that meant. Even then, I (more easily than now) brushed it off. Continued to have about a million crushes on boys and never thought of it again. But now, with my OCD, I feel “convinced” that that was a sign that I was gay. 2. I have always been a girls girl. Me and my friend have a joke that we are worse than men! Meaning that when we see a pretty girl with a nice body, we stare. We say they are pretty. Never have I ever thought anything of it. It was always from a place of envy and admiration. Never a place of lust or anything along those lines. But NOW. OH! If I even look that direction I feel guilty, I feel like that’s confirmation that I am gay. And even worse- that is one of my compulsions. To look and make myself “prove” I’m not gay. 3. I have lost “feeling” for my partner. I love my husband. More than anything else. I could not live without him. But since this all happened, my emotions and fears have been all over the place that I’ve somewhat lost that feeling. It doesn’t help that I’m on medicine that can have that effect. I have to just remind myself that love isn’t always feelings, it’s a choice. And I choose him every single day. 4. sex life issues: bc/ of the OCD fear as well as my medication, I don’t have much sex drive or pleasure in the bedroom as I did before OCD… and, my OCD likes to convince me that that is because I would be better off with a woman (even tho I don’t want that) and then, OH THEN, I proceed to experience some groinal sensation from that though. So- cue even more “proof” that I am gay. well- that’s all I can think of now. Let me know if any one yall struggle with those. And I hope you know, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. YOU ARE NOT YOUR THOUGHTS. YOU ARE NOT YOUR OCD 💚
Hi all, I deal with HOCD and been seeing a therapist for about 3.5 months. It has definitely got better but still affects me very much. Was wondering there is anyone out there who has dealt with HOCD as well and has recovered. I would love to message or even chat just see how your experience was and hear what was beneficial to you.
I haven’t done a Q&A in over a year (my bad) but I used to do these at least once a month. Work is slow today, so please send me any questions you have about OCD and I’ll answer them as best as I can. A little about me: I’ve been subclinical/recovered for going on 5 years and I’ve been on this app volunteering since 2019 in an unofficial capacity—I’m not connected to the NOCD team, so I don’t have any badges. I did ERP treatment with my therapist in-person while I was also being treated for PTSD. I have OCD, PTSD, ADHD, depression, GAD, social anxiety, driving anxiety, and a few speech impediments.
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