Am I losing my mind with constant intrusive thoughts and fears of insanity?

Insanity ?

I have intrusive thoughts every single second. Even when I am in shower there is monologue in my head that I am lost and went crazy. I question my every decision. My thoughts are absolutely nonsensical like I am gonna put socks on me than I have thought if that is normal after that I get thought if I was putting same socks before. Its complete madness. I fear schizophrenia and thats my main obsession. Seems like whatever I do i can not get out of that circle because my mind comes with another nonsense second after. I fear I will be stucked like this forever and that I need to be institutionalised. I feel like i have to question my every thought or I will act insanely. I feel like i am daydreaming, out of reality, with no memory or power over my mind. Can anyone relate ? Did anyone overcome it ?

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Username: halle2003halle2003

Date posted: 1y ago

i also have a fear of becoming schizophrenic, i have to reassure myself and ruminate on my thoughts to think myself out of it, but it has gotten better. You are not alone!!

Username: RafahelRafahel

Date posted: 1y ago

I also fear having schizophrenia. In the begining of the year was horrible but things got better.

Username: RafahelRafahel

Date posted: 1y ago

For me at least it seems like OCD have "cicles" idk if that's the best way to describe it. Like, at the begining POCD was the theme that started all of things. Then SO-OCD, Schizophrenia OCD, TOCD, Psycho OCD. It feels like OCD changes themes during time you know? And then when you think you got better in one, because you're struggling with another, it comes back stronger.

Username: halle2003halle2003

Date posted: 1y ago

@Rafahel i completely agree with you, ocd really does change themes during different times in your life. It latches onto things

Username: Dee CDee C

Date posted: 1y ago

I can relate and won’t provide reassurance but will say to rely on your doctor’s authoritative knowledge. From time to time these thoughts come across. I acknowledge as my ocd thoughts and choose not to engage with them while accepting the uncertainty, Maybe I’m schizophrenic, maybe I’m not. And I proceed to do whatever I was doing at moment. It takes practice to view the thoughts in a nonjudgmental way and just sit watching them as they float around and away. Hope this helps you.

Username: PastoPasto

Date posted: 1y ago

Thanks for support but I really question that this is not just OCD. My doctor told me it is but I feel so disconnected from my body and I dont even know what thoughts are true. Foe example I have thoughts about getting better and than I have thoughts I am worse. I for example get a thought that I am becomming paralysed I question that thought and decide for example to go visit my parents but have thoughts it is weird. So it is basically paralysing me every second.

Username: RafahelRafahel

Date posted: 1y ago

I understand you. Every OCD theme goes through that whole "what if it's not OCD?" thing. But those are the moments you should try to tell yourself "maybe it's not OCD, maybe this is actually real, maybe not. But I don't care." It's a pain in the ass because you can't fight those stuff, by doing that they only will come back stronger.

Username: EasonsEasons

Date posted: 1y ago

@Rafahel It's so hard accepting uncertainty. I struggle with harm and pocd. I really really really hope I never hurt anyone like the ways my OCD tells me. Accepting uncertainty for the unacceptable is really tough. The only thing I can do is live a value based life and have that as my foundation and then trust myself. It's hard but I'm slowly getting there.

Username: minfoy

Date posted: 5y ago

I feel like I’m losing my mind. Just a genuine question, not looking for reassurance just wondering if anyone has ever experienced a similar thing. You ever get (depending on current obsessions... mine is currently psychosis) thoughts like, what if there’s somebody in the wall if you hear a sound? I know there isn’t... I just get the thoughts. It’s very strange and some times I have to laugh.

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Username: e.ileenm

Date posted: 2y ago

Schizophrenia OCD or fear of going crazy

Anybody struggle with thinking you have schizophrenia or are slowly developing it? Mine just kinda popped up out of the blue today. Idk why I have a sudden feeling that I might hear or see something that nobody else will hear or see. I just feel like I’m stuck in my own head and I might act out of impulse. It’s making me feel anxious, uncomfortable, and worried that something might be wrong with me. I even feel like covering my ears so I can calm myself down with some piece and quiet. Please tell me someone else knows what I’m talking about

Username: Anon17

Date posted: 2y ago

Can anyone relate?

Woke up this morning immediately looking for the thoughts that I’ve been having even though i don’t want to think about them. I feel like i ended up bringing them upon myself and then i had a super gruesome thought and have been worrying about it all morning. Is it possible to bring thoughts upon yourself? Is it ocd or is it just me? I’m just so scared of going “crazy” that i keep looking for thoughts deciding if it’s me or not if you know what i mean. It’s such a scary feeling When you feel like you don’t know who you are 😭 i literally am just petrified of completely losing sense of who i am and doing something bad and being locked away forever. Is it possible to just turn bad? Does anybody know what i mean by that? Like you secretly have a double ego and completely turn into somebody different? Does anyone else experience this? Is it ocd? I’m so scared i feel like i can never catch a break.

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