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@Dameon Geronimo Trying to man

@Anonymous It’s not easy. I understand. I’m still going through it everyday. I have seen a lot of progress, though, as I’ve stopped doing compulsions.

@Dameon Geronimo I’m doing my best. Just feel doomed and all

@Anonymous How old are you if you don’t mind me asking?

@Dameon Geronimo 27

@Anonymous When did you start experiencing so-ocd

@Dameon Geronimo Back in 2013. On and off. I was late 17 or so

@Dameon Geronimo I would go years without worrying about anything bro. I was confident in who I was

@Anonymous Dude I’m in the exact same situation. I’ve loved girls all my life. I’ve had OCD my whole life (I’m 27 too). At first when I was a kid, it started out as an irrational fear of tornadoes and I live in Utah where we never get tornadoes. I was so convinced that a tornado was going to come and kill everyone that I would hide in the bathrooms at recess so I didn’t have to go outside. Even on a bright sunny day, a gust of wind would come and I would go into a panic attack and run inside. It was so real to me. Eventually I spent enough time outside to realize that I had nothing to be afraid of. Then my OCD went away. Then all of a sudden it came back when I was in high school. And the theme was Sexual Orientation. A kid in my class came out as gay and I asked myself “wait? If he’s gay, then could I be gay?” Because I never imagined him being gay. And then my over-analytical brain took that and ran with it. Meanwhile, I’ve never been attracted to other guys. And the very thought of that is super disturbing to me. (No offense to anyone on here who’s actually gay). This whole time I didn’t really know how to handle it but eventually it went away. Then I went on an LDS mission and the OCD theme came back and I struggled with it for about 6 months. It was so hard. But I found strength in God and I said “I’m not going to let this control my life” and I pushed through and I eventually learned to ignore those thoughts and it went away. Now I’m 27 and married and my wife and I have a son and now my OCD is back with the same theme. So it’s tough! But another thing I’ll mention is that my OCD has changed themes over the years. My wife is black (I’m white) and when we were dating, I all of a sudden got it in my head that I was a racist and so therefore I couldn’t date her anymore (I can’t help but laugh now because of how ridiculous that was) but at the time, I was so convinced! It was so real to me! And that’s exactly what OCD does. It creates these false realities and convinces you that these feelings are real and everything that IS real is actually a lie. But remember that the OCD thoughts are the lie. And you have to be the one to disregard them. No compulsions, no reassurances, just disregard them and say “yeah whatever OCD. Screw you. I’ve got better things to do with my day” and then move forward and live your life the way you want to live. You have a choice. That’s what I’m learning now that I didn’t know all those years ago. And it does help. Just remember that your “sickness” is so common that it has a name. And tons of people have it including me. Hang in there bro. 👊🏼

@Scott328 I just read this now.. but thanks for your words man. I’m suffering a bit right now.. it feels like just denying and lost.. I’m doing my best to ignore it, but so tough.. Your words are great man.

@jean My fear being true