Please anyone

I genuinely just dk what to do it feels like deep down ik its true even when I don't want it to be

I can't talk to her now without just feeling guilty and sad even just now the thought of her saying merry Christmas with a heart after it and me saying it back is giving me anxiety ans I feel guilty and sad what if I don't want to put a heart on as well

@Charlie I’m sorry you’re feeling this way brother it isn’t easy. You are hyper fixated on finding an answer to your questions. “Do I love her?? Do I not love her?? If I loved her I shouldn’t feel like this. If I loved her I should feel like this instead. Why am I not feeling as happy as she looks right now? Why do I feel guilt when I write a heart? Why are the simple part of a relationship so complicated right now?” All of this is exhausting and is making your OCD worse. I completely understand how hard it is to stop ruminating and trying to solve this because you don’t wanna waste your time or hers in a relationship that isn’t gonna work out right? Well there’s only one way out of this bro and it’s to practice ERP. For the next 2 weeks every single question or feeling of guilt that your brain throws at you tell yourself “maybe I love her maybe I don’t” this will cause your brain to panic and will start to ask you even more questions and feelings to try to get your attention. Stick to the plan and repeat “maybe, maybe not” and DO NOT try to figure it out. The thoughts are gonna get louder before they get quieter and that’s okay! Let them be there, screaming in your ear but don’t figure them out. If I did it you can do it too. I promise it’s doable you just have to commit. Think long term :) best of luck and feel free to reach out if you ever need anything.

@Just another OCD guy Would u be willing to listen to the story??

@Charlie Whatever you need bro. I’m getting into work now but I’ll definitely get to it either tonight or tomorrow :)

@Just another OCD guy So two weeks ago me and my gf had a big fight that really hit the both of us hard and we learnt things about each other we hadn't known about, then i started to think maybe I should end things with her and I believe they were rocd thoughts that have now formed into "u don't like her anymore" " if she ended it you wouldn't care" and its like I'm not getting sad or anxious about the thoughts it's about the lack of feelings towards her or something, I go through periods of thinking ofc I like her rocd is finally gone and I'm back and then the thoughts come back and im thinking what if they really are gone, I really don't want to end things with her at all I want to feel like myself again and for things to go back to normal like how they were just two weeks ago, whenever she says or does something nice now all I can think of is u don't even care, was ur reaction full of love like it should be, I pray this is ocd but idk if it is what if I don't feel like I did before even knowing it might be ocd isn't giving me any relief I've been in a situation with a girl before where ik I didn't like her and knew I'd to end it and I don't want this to be like that

You think you don't feel the way you should be feeling?

@set_me_free:) Yes two weeks ago ik I liked her like a lot and now I'm doubting if I do and it feels like I don't and idk if its cos of rocd and I'm panicking so much my legs are shaking

@Charlie At first place try to breath, slowly inhale and exhale several times and focus on your breath, I know it may won't help but try please.

I have been in simmilar situation, like feelings are not same all the time and it's normal, especially when you are struggling with something simmilar to ocd.

@set_me_free:) It doesn't mean that you don't like her or something, that doubt is a part of ocd too, don't forget that.

@Charlie How are you?

@set_me_free:) I'm better now she said I think i should tell u that thing and I said maybe when ur not drunk but that word love scares me as I'm only 18 I've never said it before how do ik what that feels like ans lots of what ifs

@Charlie It's okay