been feeling good no anxiety but yesterday i was thinking about when my therapy appointment will come through and the reason why i'm starting it and now i'm anxious about it and the thing that's troubling me 😣
I’m so sorry to hear your getting some anxiety surrounding why you are starting therapy. It can be very daunting at first to start with a new therapist but it is 100% worth it! It’s never easy opening up right away but it can be so beneficial to your mental health and OCD recovery. You can always reach out to your Member Advisors if you have any specific questions regarding therapy! Best of luck!
Thank you for sharing what you are going through. I think it’s great that you are starting therapy. Please try to keep in mind that OCD is the doubting disease. Therefore, it is not surprising that as you are addressing your OCD, intrusive thoughts and questions are going to come up. Try to just acknowledge the thoughts, but not engage with them. Recovery from OCD is possible. Therapy, time, and patience show us how to manage the symptoms and keep the frequency and intensity of the episodes under control. Be patient with yourself, you are doing a great job.
Hey! I would definitely mention this to your therapist . They will go slow with you and make you feel comfortable. Therapy is hard. I was so nervous when I first went but it was so worth it. You got this!
thanks everyone i'm hoping my appointment will come through soon and can get my recovery process started
These past few days I was fine. Minimal intrusive thoughts ,no anxiety etc(to add I'm on medication so maybe it's starting to work although it barely is 2 weeks) and today I got a sudden wave of anxiety and it started latching on some thoughts like" what if I'm in denial and I wanna break up with my bf? And what if erp doesn't work for me because I actually wanna break up with my bf?" But they didn't really stay long usually those thoughts would make me spiral for days or so, now they lasted for some hours. And now I'm trying to trigger myself into being anxious again because if I don't it means I don't have ocd and if I don't have ocd it means I don't love my bf and if I don't love my bf it means I have to break up. Idk if it makes sense but the lack of anxiety makes me wonder if I actually have ocd or not.
I'm going through a rough time. I used to think medication would brighten my world, but if anything, it's muted it. The physical anxiety is less, and I felt okay(ish) for a while, but things are getting bad again. I'm so afraid I'll never get to a point where I feel safe in my body and in my mind. Today is the first day I've cried in... I don't know how long. But I didn't feel the relief I thought I would. Initially, I did, but it morphed into dread, and now I'm sitting by myself, trying not to panic. I really want to begin seeing a therapist for OCD, but I don't know how much my insurance covers. There's just so much on my mind right now. A whole bunch of old themes are resurfacing. I wish I could've been given a different path in life. I'm trying to stay strong. It's just really difficult. I feel like I'm being sent back to square one :(
I got a therapist appointment in about a week and I'm scared I will get misunderstood, or I feel like Im not telling enough details, I'm scared that I have something else. This week alone was so draining
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