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@ate___ And was it all about your partner,their looks,if you really love them? And that u feel it too that u feel like ur losing interest?

@ate___ Well I’ve BPD too so I’ve fear of abandonment but mines the opposite I get intrusive thoughts of what I said above

@yaadein I’d really appreciate that if you would! I want to go to therapy to help it I just don’t know what kind to go to:/

@Avagrnnnn Here u are! https://youtu.be/iTrfPK4rETg What about therapists on here or Danielle /awaken into love , someone practice ERP and know about rocd .

@yaadein Thank you very much! See I would talk to therapists on here but usually I prefer being face to face in person,did you find it helpful on here?

@yaadein I’m from Ireland aswell I think you have to be from the US don’t you?

@Avagrnnnn You're very welcome! Unfortunately I can't can't pay for it so I try to make this on my own.

@Avagrnnnn No, I'm from Egypt

@yaadein And was it about your partner?

@Avagrnnnn Yeah, it's all about his looks, the feeling that I don't love him. it sucks I feel trapped ,suffocated and guilty most of the time My mind keeps telling me u need to run away from this rn or u will regret it forever.

@yaadein Yeah I feel you I’ve been dealing with the exact same thing it’s actually horrible and the fact it feel so so real makes it a million times worse:(

@Avagrnnnn It's awful. I even wish I could die to get away from this torture :(

@yaadein Oh same I often think about it just to get away from the thoughts and I can’t even talk to my girlfriend about it because imagine being told but someone you love that their getting thoughts about whether they love you or not.

@Avagrnnnn me too I can't tell him about it for the same reason and that's makes me feel more guilty ,and thinking about I could hurt his feelings oneday by ending things makes me very anxious :/

@yaadein Last night I was on this thread and she was asleep next to me she turned over and I clicked out of the app,she was like what are u hiding and I was just like it’s an app for like ocd and stuff and she was so suspicious.I felt so so bad but I can’t tell her it’ll hurt her feelings and she’ll probably think I don’t love her or want to be with her then.I mean I know I’m never gonna leave her or break up with her but the thoughts are consuming me so so much I really don’t know what to do

@Avagrnnnn I feel this so much :( me either don't know what should I do but the fact that it could be a disorder makes me feel less alone but u know your mind keeps telling u just use this as an excuse. lol

@yaadein I do think it’s OCD 100% but my brain tells me it’s probably not ROCD your just in denial and won’t admit your true feelings which makes me panic.Same thought until I found this app I felt so so alone

@Avagrnnnn there is also Awaken into love on YouTube u know about it right?

@yaadein Yeah I’ve watched some of the videos but it doesn’t seem to help me at all

@Avagrnnnn Unfortunately no one describes how to use ERP and the techniques aswell

@yaadein Do you know how exposure therapy works?

@Avagrnnnn All I know that I have to expose myself to the things which triggers me and to answer the thoughts with maybe yes maybe no and not engage with them /give them attention Also to stay in the present

@yaadein Did u watch the video?