Ok so just now I got a really bad intrusive thought it was “what if I’m actually gay” but I’m trying to handle it as good as I can. I’m always nervous that I don’t actually have ocd and I’m just denying that I’m gay. I almost did a compulsion, it was to look at pictures of girls (not naked just normal pictures) to see if I was attracted to them in a way that I would be considered a lesbian, but I stopped myself. I’m going to allow these thoughts to sit and make me upset. I’m not anxious but I think that’s just because I’m getting over the thoughts. I’m not going to look through this app and try to find reassurance I’m going to make sure I don’t make myself feel better. I’m home alone right now so my thoughts are wondering, I’m thinking a lot. I’m going to play games to kind of separate my thoughts, and make myself feel calm. Games have always been a big part of my life, I love games so that will bring me joy. I wanted to post this just so I could show myself that I can get through hard times, and hopefully this will help someone else!

You should not play to mute your thoughts. Games is ocd and muting your thoughts is ocd that will get you to scream someday when you cannot mute it anymore. I used to have that muting problem but my brother told me that I shouldn't escape from my thoughts I should just think and relax not depress myself, and I found it quite helpful. Just relax, do not tense yourself, try to concentrate on the real problem or solution bc I think you didn't think right before, I mean it could just be that you push yourself into something you thinkg is the solution but I'm not saying that tho. Sorry I didn't focus on the main issue here but I don't know how to help you in it but that's the best I can do and I'm sure you can help yourself if you tried again and you can use some help from someone good. I am sure it's gonna end up well soon and hope you get better. Don't give up!?❤️

I’m not really playing to mute my thoughts, I’m playing because it calms me down. Like the thoughts are still there but they don’t bother me as much. I saw fthis thing that said that you should do something you enjoy for like 15 minutes to kind of calm your mind to get you in the right mindset. I guess that could be true thought I could be pushing the thoughts away??‍♀️ Idk though. I do seem like I’m getting better, because I still can tell what’s real and what’s not. I also can still tell when a boys a cutie?? The attraction just isn’t the same. Thank you though!!❤️❤️

Best wishes?❤️

If it bothers you its because you’re still taking it too seriously, play with the thought a little bit laugh at it, dont be so hard on yourself, with practice it’ll have the same importance as any other random thought like “i should do groceries” thing is you dont get stuck on why you have to go to the supermarket, the point is that you get scared with the “being gay” thought. When it comes, laugh at it, say “oh hey intrusive thought here you are again, ok, i guess me and my superb gayness will carry on through the day” and engage on something.

Hey there! I would say to the thought when it comes “so what if im gay?” or “then at least men would be more empathic” and laugh, each time it comes try either to accept it with a “so what” or with humor, and keep going throuh your day, when it comes confront it with “yeah right im probably the gayest person alive” put a little fun into it, ridiculize it, accept that is there and is just your sinapses trying to give you an interesting topic to engage with. The more you accept, ridiculize and then engage in other activity, the more tolerance you’ll get towards the thought and it will subside, remember, don’t fight it, don’t fear it. Accept it when it comes, laugh at it. Hang in there!!

I correct myself use the “at least women will understand me better” i missed that you’re a girl, the rest apply it the same! cheers!

That’s actually what I’ve been trying lately and it seems to work, because I know I’m not a lesbian it’s just the fact that it’s there that bothers me

Ok I’ll do that!!

Hey, how’s it been going so far?

Everything has been really good!! I’m getting better everyday. Obviously the thoughts still pop up but I don’t care anymore. I’m stronger than it and I’m showing it that I don’t care. ERP is easier I can do it during the day because I don’t get triggered as much. It’s all becoming easier