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Accept that you don't know! It's okay to do what ever you want and be who ever you want if you aren't hurting anyone. Experiment and stuff because you only live once. Really take yourself out your comfort zone to conquere your fears xx

Me 2! I’ve had sexuality OCD and recovered. And I have gender OCD now. Working on recovery. Hang in there.. I know it’s tough and I’ve had a lot of days where I thought I was finally going to lose my mind. Those days suck. But good days do come again. I think I may have responded to another post of yours about mindfulness. Again, I’d highly recommend trying it. It will also help you become aware of when you’re doing a compulsion. At first, you may not realize until half way through, “oh crap, I’m doing it again.” But after practice you start catching it faster and stopping it. Reading some books on Pure O may also help. It will make you feel more informed, prepared, and in control. Perspective is hard to have in the midst of an OCD crisis, but you can find it again.

We can’t answer that question and even if we could, reassuring you one way or the other would actually be the wrong thing for us to do because that feeds OCD. All those thoughts you just laid out: that’s a nice little compulsions there of trying to endlessly “figure it out.” The thing about a spiral is that you can follow it forever without an end. It’s time for some ERP therapy. Lay out your triggers, expose yourself to them without performing compulsions (ie ruminating, analyzing, looking for clues in your past, body/mental checking.) Instead, just sit with the trigger and your anxiety until the anxiety dissipates. Then do it again. And again. Eventually, the thoughts will lose their power and you’ll regain some actual insight into yourself again. For now, the thoughts are in control. Not you. You have to stop feeding them. Good luck ?

This is exactly how I feel . Maybe we should talk more because I’ve been reading your posts and I noticed we have a lot of the same thoughts when it come to our themes . And it makes me feel a little relieved as wel l