idont241
- Date posted
- 5y ago
idont241idont241
- Date posted
- 5y ago
It’s like I just can’t identify as a woman anymore. Like I just can’t. Even tho i have no reason I just can’t. It doesn’t feel right anymore. Like I see women and I question “why be a woman. How can you not feel uncomfortable being a woman”. I hate how my ocd always targets my identity
MissLovelyMissLovely
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Accept that you don't know! It's okay to do what ever you want and be who ever you want if you aren't hurting anyone. Experiment and stuff because you only live once. Really take yourself out your comfort zone to conquere your fears xx
idont241idont241
- Date posted
- 5y ago
It just attacks my identity. My name, my pronouns, my likings. It’s awful. I don’t even realize when I do compulsions and that’s the worse. I don’t know when I try to figure it out or not. I just can’t tell. I feel too numb and depressed. I’ve just lost everything and today was big evidence of that.
pureolifepureolife
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Me 2! I’ve had sexuality OCD and recovered. And I have gender OCD now. Working on recovery. Hang in there.. I know it’s tough and I’ve had a lot of days where I thought I was finally going to lose my mind. Those days suck. But good days do come again. I think I may have responded to another post of yours about mindfulness. Again, I’d highly recommend trying it. It will also help you become aware of when you’re doing a compulsion. At first, you may not realize until half way through, “oh crap, I’m doing it again.” But after practice you start catching it faster and stopping it. Reading some books on Pure O may also help. It will make you feel more informed, prepared, and in control. Perspective is hard to have in the midst of an OCD crisis, but you can find it again.
pureolifepureolife
- Date posted
- 5y ago
We can’t answer that question and even if we could, reassuring you one way or the other would actually be the wrong thing for us to do because that feeds OCD. All those thoughts you just laid out: that’s a nice little compulsions there of trying to endlessly “figure it out.” The thing about a spiral is that you can follow it forever without an end. It’s time for some ERP therapy. Lay out your triggers, expose yourself to them without performing compulsions (ie ruminating, analyzing, looking for clues in your past, body/mental checking.) Instead, just sit with the trigger and your anxiety until the anxiety dissipates. Then do it again. And again. Eventually, the thoughts will lose their power and you’ll regain some actual insight into yourself again. For now, the thoughts are in control. Not you. You have to stop feeding them. Good luck ?
anonymousNanonymousN
- Date posted
- 5y ago
This is exactly how I feel . Maybe we should talk more because I’ve been reading your posts and I noticed we have a lot of the same thoughts when it come to our themes . And it makes me feel a little relieved as wel l
idont241idont241
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Well, I don’t feel like I have this trans ocd them as bad as everyone. I just feel bad because I hate how this is targeting my identity. I just go this 4 days ago. I am going to my therapist today and I think I’ll tell her. I don’t know. I have to do something about it.
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- Date posted
- 23w ago
I’m confused
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landonw
- Date posted
- 21w ago
Why Does It Seem So Real?
Lately, I have been able to manage my OCD thoughts kind of. They’re still there but I kind of push them away? I know that pushing them away doesn’t help but it’s been my only way to survive. I get scared often about things like clothes or my voice or how I present myself. I get scared that I want to dress differently or act differently and it scares me. I know for a fact I don’t want boobs or anything like that, but my mind constantly is like “What if?” and it kills me. It has ruined everything for me. Sometimes I can’t even look in the mirror because I get scared that I won’t like what I see. I’ve also been afraid because I find myself relating to many female characters, or I want to act like them. Like Pearl from Steven Universe. I want to be graceful and elegant like her, but I don’t want to be a girl you know? My mind constantly pushes these thoughts of what if and images. Because I am not like most guys. Which I know is okay. It just freaks me out. It makes me question every aspect of my being. I know who I am, but I know that the only way to move forward is to accept that maybe I don’t.. It’s just a lot.
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