I really need help anime watchers

@Need_advice But it said he was 15 and it didn’t click until the character actually said it because when it first showed the character in the first episode, he looked much older than the other character. I’m so scared because what if I thought a 15 old character was attractive?! I’m so panicked now

@Need_advice I had that little worry today

@Need_advice I really hope it’s just the ocd trying to twist something that it’s not. Like I said it wasn’t sexual and it wasn’t even anything like “oh I would date him” it was just random because he looked older, he had older features compared to another character his age, and it happened so fast and random. I told the guy I’m talking to I would watch the second episode and now I don’t want to

@Mikeneko 🧡 It wasn’t even sexual attraction at all. His features looked so much older it through me off. Does that make me a horrible monster?

@Need_advice I completely understand. I don’t even want to watch anymore but I told the guy I’m talking to that I would. I’m terrified and I feel guilty because what if I actually did think he was “hot” or “attractive” but it was in no way sexual at all

@Need_advice Then I asked my friend at work about anime and if it was normal for younger characters to look older and he said yeah but I’m so scared of what if he thinks I’m a weirdo or a monster

@Need_advice The one you are talking about? From what anime?

@Mikeneko 🧡 Death note

@Mikeneko 🧡 In the beginning he was 17 though 😔 idk how I’m going to solve this thought. Well.. he looks the same throughout most of the show so when he was 17 he looked the same as when he’s 23 so he basically looks like an adult? Idk I’m still going to be thinking about this thought

@Need_advice I think I’m still going to try and solve the thought , this one is hard

@Need_advice He must have been 18 most of the show , I hope 🙁 idk but that’s one small obsession of mine that I wanted to share with you.

@Need_advice Ahh I haven’t seen death note yet I was going to eventually but I totally understand. I want to believe that it’s just the pocd but I’m the back of my mind it’s telling me that’s it’s not ocd and it’s my problem. I am so sorry you are going through this too. Saying maybe, maybe not works sometimes but not always. This time I can’t handle the uncertainty because I feel like I already know the answer but I’m so scared because I really don’t want it to be true that I’m attracted. I know some people say things like that to their own son or brother like oh look at that handsome boy or if they tell their siblings if they look a certain way or not without it being sexual but I’m freaking out so much right now. I’m at work and all I want to do is break down and cry

@Need_advice Thank you for sharing that. I completely understand. You are not alone and I’m so sorry you are dealing with this too. It’s nice to know I’m not alone in this though. I feel like I’m in a really dark mindset right now if that makes sense

@Mikeneko 🧡 Ocd tends to make you feel doubt so I understand why you’re feeling this way. I believe because the character looks older this happened not because you’re a pedophile and I know that you are a good person. Are you seeing a therapist if you don’t mind me asking?