Ocd is getting worse

I have your same obsessions, literally whatever I do: for example , if in the moment I open the door a particular person pops up in my mind, I have to undo the action and re-open the door otherwise I’m afraid I start thinking that I’ll turn into that person (I try not to compulse)

Same thing for the soul, and... Guess what..I’m agnostic

Another magical thinking: intrusive curses, whatever I do, An intrusive thought might pop up, example, I pick up a pencil and I have the intrusive thought of cursing a loved one, even though I m aware’s there’s no connections between picking up a pen and the intrusive thought, I feel responsible and guilty

And if I try not to compulse, another obsession pops up: “ if you don’t undo the action, it means you don’t care about your loved ones”

I found these two podcasts on magical thinking really helpful (it could be a little triggering but I think it explains magical thinking very well): https://podcasts.apple.com/gb/podcast/the-ocd-stories/id1065492988?i=1000444965108 https://podcasts.apple.com/gb/podcast/your-anxiety-toolkit/id1098792502?i=1000513657911 Especially this one! Hope it helps. I’m dealing with something very similar and I’m doing ERP for it. It is so hard but I have seen improvement.

Thanks, it is a relief that i am not the only one with these thoughts.

Intrusive thoughts while I do everyday actions, such as giving away my loved ones’ soul or sending them to hell This thought freaks me out because there is no way to check

Yeah thats exactly what i have proplems with not being able to confirm if their real.

I was afraid to be the only one in the word with the fear of start thinking of turning into someone else

Let’s keep in touch :)

Yeah

Same ive seen some People on the internet with similiar proplems but ive never really found anyone that have thoughts like me. How do you deal with ur thoughts? I really have tough Time trying not to do the compulsions.

I find not to compulse harder when the intrusive thought is about my loved ones, but I don’t wanna trigger your ocd creativity by telling the content

But if you are not scared, I have no problem to tell

Yeah go ahead

I’ve spoken about my fears to a friend of mine and I told her “sometimes I have intrusive thought to sell your soul and it makes me feel guilty” (I know I compulsed by confessing it to her ) but her answer was helpful , she laugh and said, it’s like you’d tried to sell my car to someone, but the car is mine, I’ve got the keys and the documents ! I don’t allow you to sell my car! :) I was seeking reassurance and it worked for a while, but then I started wondering ... you can verify it in the physical word, but how can you verify how the thoughts influences these spiritual things ? That’s why magical thinking is really tricky.. the only thing we should think is “maybe yes, maybe not” I hope that’s clear, it’s hard for me to explain these things because I’m not a native English speaker

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And ive tried saying maybe or maybe not to myself it works on the smaller and easier fears or thoughts but when it is something i couldn't bear to lose it dosen't work i just feel that my thoughts counter almost everything i try to use against those thoughts.