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Username: Joni18

Date posted: 1y ago

Ocd is getting worse

At the start i only had intrusive thoughts of my family dying then it started also telling me that i will lose myself and ill turn into someone Else and now ocd is telling me that i am giving away my soul when i do anything and i am not even religious i cant do anything even the most Basic everyday things cause alot of stress i have been tormented by a though and i couldnt sleep Last night when i finally could fall a sleep at 11 am but the moment i woke up it started botherin me again what should i do? I am starting to have proplems knowing whats real or not.

Magical Thinking OCD

Username: NonsoNonso

Date posted: 1y ago

I have your same obsessions, literally whatever I do: for example , if in the moment I open the door a particular person pops up in my mind, I have to undo the action and re-open the door otherwise I’m afraid I start thinking that I’ll turn into that person (I try not to compulse)

Username: NonsoNonso

Date posted: 1y ago

Same thing for the soul, and... Guess what..I’m agnostic

Username: GmmlseGmmlse

Date posted: 1y ago

@Nonso I have this too!!!

Username: NonsoNonso

Date posted: 1y ago

Another magical thinking: intrusive curses, whatever I do, An intrusive thought might pop up, example, I pick up a pencil and I have the intrusive thought of cursing a loved one, even though I m aware’s there’s no connections between picking up a pen and the intrusive thought, I feel responsible and guilty

Username: NonsoNonso

Date posted: 1y ago

And if I try not to compulse, another obsession pops up: “ if you don’t undo the action, it means you don’t care about your loved ones”

Username: GmmlseGmmlse

Date posted: 1y ago

I found these two podcasts on magical thinking really helpful (it could be a little triggering but I think it explains magical thinking very well): https://podcasts.apple.com/gb/podcast/the-ocd-stories/id1065492988?i=1000444965108 https://podcasts.apple.com/gb/podcast/your-anxiety-toolkit/id1098792502?i=1000513657911 Especially this one! Hope it helps. I’m dealing with something very similar and I’m doing ERP for it. It is so hard but I have seen improvement.

Username: Joni18Joni18

Date posted: 1y ago

Thanks, it is a relief that i am not the only one with these thoughts.

Username: NonsoNonso

Date posted: 1y ago

Intrusive thoughts while I do everyday actions, such as giving away my loved ones’ soul or sending them to hell This thought freaks me out because there is no way to check

Username: Joni18Joni18

Date posted: 1y ago

Yeah thats exactly what i have proplems with not being able to confirm if their real.

Username: NonsoNonso

Date posted: 1y ago

I was afraid to be the only one in the word with the fear of start thinking of turning into someone else

Username: NonsoNonso

Date posted: 1y ago

Let’s keep in touch :)

Username: Joni18Joni18

Date posted: 1y ago

Yeah

Username: GmmlseGmmlse

Date posted: 1y ago

@Joni16 Please! I’ve not met many other non-religious people with religious themed magical thinking. It’s so nice to speak to you, although I’m sad you’re going through this

Username: Joni18Joni18

Date posted: 1y ago

Same ive seen some People on the internet with similiar proplems but ive never really found anyone that have thoughts like me. How do you deal with ur thoughts? I really have tough Time trying not to do the compulsions.

Username: NonsoNonso

Date posted: 1y ago

I find not to compulse harder when the intrusive thought is about my loved ones, but I don’t wanna trigger your ocd creativity by telling the content

Username: NonsoNonso

Date posted: 1y ago

But if you are not scared, I have no problem to tell

Username: Joni18Joni18

Date posted: 1y ago

Yeah go ahead

Username: NonsoNonso

Date posted: 1y ago

I’ve spoken about my fears to a friend of mine and I told her “sometimes I have intrusive thought to sell your soul and it makes me feel guilty” (I know I compulsed by confessing it to her ) but her answer was helpful , she laugh and said, it’s like you’d tried to sell my car to someone, but the car is mine, I’ve got the keys and the documents ! I don’t allow you to sell my car! :) I was seeking reassurance and it worked for a while, but then I started wondering ... you can verify it in the physical word, but how can you verify how the thoughts influences these spiritual things ? That’s why magical thinking is really tricky.. the only thing we should think is “maybe yes, maybe not” I hope that’s clear, it’s hard for me to explain these things because I’m not a native English speaker

Username: NonsoNonso

Date posted: 1y ago

*world

Username: Joni18Joni18

Date posted: 1y ago

And ive tried saying maybe or maybe not to myself it works on the smaller and easier fears or thoughts but when it is something i couldn't bear to lose it dosen't work i just feel that my thoughts counter almost everything i try to use against those thoughts.

Username: Cozy_dragon

Date posted: 2y ago

Ocd about being alive

At this point I’m pretty sure I’m psychotic. I have intrusive thoughts all day long of me doing a bunch of things that I never and will never do. Images of me poking out my own eyes in all sorts of other horrific things that will have to do with self mutilation. These images have been haunting me for two years with the persisting fear that I will act out on these things one day despite me never wanting to do so. Now on top of these thoughts I am dealing with something else. I keep thinking about the fact that there’s no escape from life other than death and it makes me feel scared and trapped. I can’t stop thinking about this that there’s no escape. It’s scaring me. I want to live I have no desire to die but once I get the intrusive thought about not being able to escape this life is scaring me. I believe I’m going through depersonalization because nothing feels right my surroundings feel unfamiliar I feel unfamiliar. I feel like an alien in a place that seems unknown to me. This all started after I had a panic attack in the shower three weeks ago over my intrusive harm thoughts and in the moment I actually thought that my life was over and that I was about to act out on it but of course I didn’t because it’s just a thought and an obsessive fear. Something I would never do but it felt so real in that momentI almost passed out from the fear. The day after that I felt like nothing was real and I’m still in depersonalization and having panic attacks on the regular but today I got that thought about not being able to escape life and how we’re basically all trapped here. I can’t stop thinking it and it’s making me feel sick. Maybe if I Felt more connected to myself and my surroundings stuff like this wouldn’t bother me but that panic attack destroyed me. Does this sound like OCD or something else?I was completely normal and fine three weeks ago yes I had my intrusive thoughts but they weren’t scaring me or controlling me like they are now.

Harm OCD

Username: Taylen

Date posted: 2y ago

im scared, need advice quick.

I’ve been recently struggling so much with the intrusive thoughts and images, it was bad at first but now its worse. I cant even cry anymore. Im questioning myself. am i really crazy? am i really scared if these thoughts? what if i lose my self control? what if i am my intrusive thoughts? what if i don’t feel bad about them? im so scared my life is being taken over im not myself anymore i feel like im going through derealization as well which i’ve struggled with in the past. I haven’t been diagnosed but am almost 100% sure i have harm OCD im talking to a therapist and a doctor to get me on pills. Someone help me please or give me advice i feel so disgusted looking at myself bc i feel like im a sick human. These thoughts are against my family, especially my mom which is the person i love the most in the world. Im only 13 and miss my old self. I regret watching Dahmer so much, which is what initially caused this for the first time. What if im never gonna be the same again. I cant sleep i feel sick even eating. Am i alone on this.

Username: StrawberrySun

Date posted: 48w ago

Early morning ocd

Early morning havnt slept and ocd hasn't stopped for days I just want to be able to breath it's so debilitating in every way and I just feel the ocd thoughts start to pop ideas in my head and the things it comes up with like the worries are not just thoughts they are fully formed situations and very specific when I haven't even thought about it before it's like it forms this whole thing in my head subconsciously and then before I know it I'm chillin and then I'm just 50 ft under water drowning because it just throws a whole spacific situation at me that I never even thought of this effects me in every way possible and I just lay here misrible all day having seizer after seizer from stress being suicidal and just suffocating and so much more I just dread every moment I'm awake because the moment I am counsious it starts ugh it's every moment of my day just suffering so yeah really not looking forward to waking up 10 years of this and I'm exhausted the only relief I get is switching to another theme like i just wamma get pregnant so i csn obsess over that instead of what i am rn ot effects everyone around me and im just so miserable

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