- Date posted
- 2y
Panicked and confused
Trying to deal with coming out or not because I don’t know if it’s real. My anxiety tells me I am. It feels like my gut is trying to tell me yes you are. I’ve had small bouts of questioning for the past 10 years, but was always primarily attracted to men. Over the last 2 years though my attraction to women has surfaced more than it ever has. It’s really annoying. I have no problem with homosexuality - I just don’t want to be gay. I really don’t. I’m trying to ask myself why but it’s really hard to answer and I’m afraid to answer it. I think it would disappoint my father but he would still love me. But I also just don’t want to be different. I just really want to be heterosexual and sure of it. It’s really annoying ugh.