What if I am bisexual?

I don’t want to offend or trigger anyone! I just feel like I need talk about this. if anyone relates to this let me know!! At this point I don’t have a lot of anxiety about my sexuality anymore and it’s kinda scaring me. i really doubt i am a lesbian because i absolutely love my boyfriend, and i don’t find any relativity in the label lesbian. like it’s hard to explain, but i just get a feeling around each label. i feel like i am straight, but like some kind of fluidity. but i feel like bisexuality is so open and fluid that i like could possibly be? i have no idea. i also don’t know if my OCD is making it so i believe that i’m bisexual even though i’ve never questioned it before?? I don’t think i would mind being bisexual, but it’s still a little weird to me. but even then i could not see myself dating women lol. i love men. so maybe i’m bisexual but with a big preference to men? I really find comfort in the fact and idea that i love men and are drawn to men. i am however VERY uncomfortable with the idea of being with a woman. i mean even if my friends who are girls try to hold my hands i get uncomfy and grossed out lol. I DON’T KNOWWWW

Sexual Orientation OCD

Username: Anni23Anni23

Date posted: 1y ago

Oh also, i can’t even watch movies or read books where this topic could be a part, cause it just triggers me so badly. I start thinking that I could just be in denial or lying to myself about my true sexuality and that is so hard.

Username: Ditto Ditto

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anny1005 I’ve questioned before but it didn’t feel urgent and panicky like now. It’s currently 230 am where I am and I’m wide awake :(

Username: jag92jag92

Date posted: 1y ago

I relate to all of this it’s so hard…I think I must have had ocd since I was 13? Cause I had these feelings then and it sort of went away…and come back every now and again but came back hugely when I got engaged to my boyfriend. We have a child together and I was so happy but my brain just keeps telling me I’m not happy or tries to figure out if I am happy or not and so I can never actually feel happy if that makes sense?! I am really struggling with my identity too like I’ve been pretending to be someone this whole time :(

Username: Ditto Ditto

Date posted: 1y ago

I’m wrestling with my sexuality too! I’m married to a man (who is amazing btw) but am anxious about my sexuality :/ tonight has been rough. I want to confess I’m gay to him but that doesn’t feel right :( the urge is so strong but then the urge doesn’t feel like me and feels like anxiety :(

Username: Ditto Ditto

Date posted: 1y ago

He knows I’m considering bisexuality because my thoughts/anxiety is so intense, so it’s not a secret.

Username: Anni23Anni23

Date posted: 1y ago

I can relate. It first started a few weeks ago for me, even thought I’ve never questioned my sexuality before. Now I can’t even look at any woman without automatically checking for feeling and emotions there, it’s so stressful. I would often see if a woman is pretty, but that’s it, it was never more. So these feelings are over the top confusing for me as well. They’re hurting me a lot, cause I feel like they’re keeping me from being with my bf.

Username: Hudi123Hudi123

Date posted: 1y ago

I have been experiencing this too but I am 24 and have always had anxiety but at the same time I wanted to date and just felt anxious while doing it now my brain has been trying to convince me I’m gay or bi and I hate it and just want to go back to myself

Username: crybaby

Date posted: 2y ago

Funny little realization

All my life I had labeled myself as bisexual. And I was OK with that! It never really made me uncomfortable or doubt. Even know, when I think about the possibility of me being bisexual, or just straight I feel alright and normal!! I don’t have a SOCD crap attack over it! BUT when me being a lesbian is involved, that’s when my OCD explodes!! Anyone else get like that?

Sexual Orientation OCD

Username: Redrose

Date posted: 1y ago

In need of queer advice!

Hello, I’m 22F. I have always had crushes on men and have dated men. I never really CARED for sex much but I would still do it. I watch lesbian porn or anything that stimulates the girl more/ what I would enjoy. I fantasize about getting with a girl/ wanting to do things with a girl because of how good it would feel. However, I’ve been in a relationship with a guy for 2 years. Before him, I used to really like another guy. I can’t differentiate between whether I am lesbian, BI, or just straight with normal fantasies. I can’t think/ imagine myself in a relationship with a girl but I guess it wouldn’t be bad to get with a girl at the same time. Sex is just sex. However, I started having obsessive thoughts about my sexuality 2 years ago since then I’ve been diagnosed with health anxiety also. I don’t know, could it be that I’m just not that into my current boyfriend that it makes me question my sexuality? Is it it possible that he might not be so attractive to me that it makes me feel / think what if I am not straight? How can you differentiate between intrusive OCE or the reality / truth of something?? I don’t recall ever having a crush on a girl but I still see certain men and acknowledge how good looking they are and imagine being with them.

Username: 13vera

Date posted: 35w ago

pls respond

i’ve (22f) been out as bisexual for almost five years and i’ve known i love women my whole life. I’ve always still been “attracted”to men but ever since i opened myself up to women it feels very different and more comfortable, but i am worried this is just because of men-related trauma. i feel like i am lying to myself either way if i call myself bisexual or a lesbian. I have a really hard time distinguishing how i really feel from my so-ocd making me choose a label for myself. I know i love women but it really confuses me if i still like men or not. Like i said this might not even be my ocd talking, just confusion lol. but the ocd is making me obsess over figuring it out. is anyone else dealing with something like this?

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