Has anyone experienced False memories with cheating ocd? I have this memory that I kissed a friend while I was super drunk but he said it didn’t happen and so did my other friend who was there. I’m terrified and feel awful and guilty and I don’t know what to do.
and it feels so so real and then my brain creates more scenarios that build up the situation
Yes it’s a never ending nightmare if I can somehow manage to talk my way through one scenario my mind will say well what about this time and are you sure. I need a lobotomy 💀
@SB93 lmao same
Yes. This is something that I struggle with too. I am married and was drunk one night with an ex boyfriend from high school and some other old friends. I would never cheat, yet I have convinced myself that I have. I even have images in my head of it yet everyone there said nothing happened. It’s the strangest thing. I’m sorry you’re dealing with this. All I can say is you need to trust what he is telling you, that you did not cheat.
It’s so hard to when you have that imagine in your head you know bc why would that imagine exist if it’s not real. Then I worry that bc they know how important my relationship is they are lying about it me to protect me. I am in total destress over this and I feel like I don’t trust myself and that I’m a person who cheats but I’m so against cheating. Thank you for talking to me I feel like I’m going crazy
i experience all this too
it feels so so real
Yes and I’m also going over in the past this time I was sitting on a bed with those same friends and my knee was touching the other guys knee and I didn’t move it even though I knew he probably had a crush on me and I guess I must have liked the attention bc I didn’t move it and I feel like it’s cheating. The bed was small though but still would you consider that cheating? I didn’t go out of my way to do it but it happened
Also there was no feelings on my end if anything it felt good knowing I was desirable. I told my bf about it recently and he said he didn’t think it was cheating but I feel like it was
@getbetter33 I hope your feeling good today and if your ever struggling I will be here to talk
@SB93 and the dreams that coke with it:(
Yess like damn can’t I get a moment of peace
So I cant remember if I've ever asked this here, but has anyone ever done something awful that their ocd convinced them to do and now can't let go of the guilt? And I dont mean like terrible terrible things but like lying to someone, cheating, or something else that can cause heavy guilt. If so, how did you get past this? I feel like I'm not sure how to forgive myself when my moral code is so high.
I have this thought where i think ive chested on my partner 2 years ago when drunk at a party I really really dont think it happened because i only had the thought a few months ago “what if i cheated at this party with this guy who i barely even know” I see a future with my boyfriend and i don’t want to confess but i just feel like i have to JUST IJ CASE but i know it could hurt him so much and it probably didnt even happen I cant just ask the guy who i think i cheated with because were not friends and dont speak so if i message he will think im some freak Anyone in a similar boat or overcome this I just don’t know how i can move forward without confessing
I was a night out last saturday. I was talking to everyone in the bar. I had a similar thing 5 years ago and in the mean time a few times but not that sticky. Because I knew that I would panic when I drink and dont remember every little thing, I told my friend who was playing at the kicker table about every conversation that I had the evening. At the end of the night I knew almost everyone in the bar. At the end of the night I met a girl whi rememered me from that night 5 years ago. I guess that triggered me? I went to the toilet multiple times and remembered thinking about "what if I think I had sex tomorrow?" And imagined some stuff.Something like that I can not recall it a 100%. When we were going home I cried so much about meeting that girl from 5 years ago, i was just going crazy. I know think that I did have cheated on the toilet and that cryiing was because I did cheat. So the next day I guess everything was fine I was talking about the evening with my friends, they said I was a hyperactive squirell. And we were talking about the evening. Wehen I came home I told my bf that I missed him and told him about the evening. Something felt very off. The next day I was checking my body and saw scratches on my inner thigh.. i knew that I was peeing in a bush of thornes but somehow my mind just didnt want to accept it. Now 7 days later I have really disturbing images in my head of cheating on that toilet. I remember so much if that night but not everytime I went to the toilet. I am so sad.. i think its not ocd. It is real and i just surpressed it. I was feeling so good in that relationship of 8 years with my partner I love him more than everything, but I can nit let that images go. What if I thought having sex is no cheating... or that I needed to know how it felt like to cheat so I can be sure I didnt do it 5 years ago. I cant handle this!!!! I hate myself so much.. I somehow got out of this miseries of disturbing images with other real events like 5-6times but this time I think, it must have happened. What if I had mean thoughts about my boyfriend. Wat if I cheated on him 5 times ....
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