Scc08

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

Harm/Suicidal OCD question?

Hi everyone, just hoping to find someone in the same boat. I wanted to ask if anyone felt the same way. I feel like im actively holding myself back and telling myself to not harm other people or myself. I feel like i’m just holding it off as long as I can till the day that I won’t care anymore and act out my thoughts. I just feel like these thoughts would ultimately happen and I’m just trying to make myself not do them at the moment. Does anyone feel the same way?🥲 Hoping I’m not the only one.

68273

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

I use to get urges

68273

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@68273 I don’t suffer from harm anymore but took many years I didn’t know I had ocd

Scc08

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@68273 How did you get out of harm OCD? 🙇‍♀️ i really wanna get rid of this theme🤦🏻‍♀️

Scaredallday

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

I hate that we feel this way. But its nice to know I'm not alone. 🥺

Scc08

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@Scaredallday Good to know I’m not alone too :( I just feel so isolated in my head, and I just feel like the doom day or whatever we call acting out intrusive thoughts will happen some time, when my will power fails me 🥲

68273

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

We’ll, it just switched to a different theme. Also, I just let the thoughts be, I didn’t respond , for many years I could only have one kitchen knife and I made sure it was not sharp. I use to thave thoughts that if I ended up hurting someone one day, I would go to prison and being in prison wasn’t that bad 😞 now I kinda laugh at those thoughts. I’m able to read stories of criminals etc w out being triggered

Scc08

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@68273 Ah im happy to know that these thoughts don’t bother you anymore🥹 its just so though having all these thoughts :( sorry that you have to deal with other themes tho! Ocd is super annoying!

68273

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

I know my thoughts are getting worse w no anxiety

Scc08

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@68273 Some days i get really bad thoughts but with little anxiety, then i start re-thinking them again🤦🏻‍♀️

Ocdhater29

Date posted: 2y

I get urges so bad to act out and I feel like it’s only a matter of time u til I act out

Scc08

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@Ocdhater29 Omg me too :( I also get sudden huge spikes of fear when I am using sharp objects next to ppl I love :( I also feel like its a matter of time that I would act out🥲

Ocdhater29

Date posted: 2y

@Scc08 For example I was just eating dinner next to my little brother on the couch and I had a fork in my hand and I felt like I really wanted to stab him in the side with it. I felt like it took everything in me to not do it

Scc08

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@Ocdhater29 I was cooking the other day and my knife was pretty close to someone I love dearly, and I got so anxious that i immediately threw it into the sink 😭 you are not alone :(

CB1992

Date posted: 2y

It’s horrible I feel like I’ve been in fight or flight mode since October because of this. There’s no way to calm myself down fully because the thought is there that ‘eventually you’ll act out and hurt yourself or someone else’ like it’s ‘only a matter of time.’ Truly makes me feel like I’m mental.

Scc08

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@CB1992 Ugh same here! Except that ive been that way since May🥲 out of all the things possible, this is the last thing I want to obsess over :( I feel you!! I just feel like I have to make a conscious effort to tell myself “don’t do it” to not act it out. I also have the thought that eventually it will happen, and I’m just delaying it as long as my will power can😭😭😭

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

i feel the EXACT same way, you are not alone

laladracu

Date posted: 24w

Harm ocd

I am so scared that my *undiagnosed* OCD is going to make me harm someone close to me in my family. I’m afraid of knives, I’m afraid of things that COULD be a weapon like pens, forks or anything like that. My sister is my BFF and my thoughts have latched onto her. I’m so afraid!! I don’t know how to make them stop. How do I stop and will it eventually subside? How do I work on compulsions? I’m on Zoloft 50mg as well for 3.5 weeks and a lot of my other worries have subsided except this one. I feel like a crazy person :( Also does this sound like OCD?

Anonymous

Date posted: 14w

Harm ocd

Hello everybody I just am looking for someone to talk to about my harm ocd / false memory/ sexual intrusiveness. Anyone who has healed or found ways to deal with the illness. Feels like I’m losing hope more and more everyday. I want to be okay but it’s hard living with uncertainty and unwanted urges of doing something terrible. Thanks god bless.

ItWillBeOkay...

Date posted: 13w

Harm OCD

About 2 months ago, I sliced my arm so deep in an attempt to make this all go away.. as there was blood spurting like everywhere my life flashed before my eyes and I could hear my parents laughing in the room beside me. I started screaming for help as my eyes flooded with tears. How could their little girl do that to herself?? I was able to get to the ER and have my arm stitched up.. making my attempt a fail. But I’m so scared. I don’t want to do something like that again. I’ve never seen my parents cry except for then. The fear in their eyes haunts me up to this day. But that’s the only thing that relieves my pain. Can someone help or relate to this ???

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