Clothes

I'm adding a bottle of Lysol to each wash, I'm messed up.

@Vit That stuff makes my skin itch with just using the recommended h proper amount! That’s one of the big reasons I wash a second time! It’s not that you’re more messed up than others, we just all have different focus’! Even within the contamination theme we’re all going to be so different in our obsessions and compulsions. Laundry isn’t as big a trigger for me as other things which is why I’ve been able to get to a pretty decent point with it through practicing ERP. It definitely didn’t happen overnight though! Are you doing ERP at all? Anything you can do to reduce, postpone or otherwise disrupt the OCD cycle will help. So like for me at first I sometimes would take the item and double wash with sanitizer then throw it in a bag and leave it for a week or so before I brought it back out and washed it again before actually putting it away and wearing it.

@Robbin I'm not doing any therapy at the moment. Nobody from my family understands what I'm going through, I got many obligations lately and I'm feeling so freaking lost. I got to start therapy again. Thank you Robbin. Be strong whatever works for you.

@Vit I’m so sorry! I can definitely relate to feeling like family and friends can’t understand. I think sometimes the more overwhelmed we get even more sucked into the compulsions and OCD because it feels easier to just give in even though in the end it makes it worse. Even if you don’t start therapy again, just start practicing ERP where you can even though it’s tough. Like with the laundry start with only using the directed amount of sanitizer instead of the whole bottle when your washing “non contaminated” items. It’ll feel uncomfortable but wash/dry and put it away anyways. Or maybe laundry’s too big for you and you need to start with something more manageable but just start disrupting the OCD where you can. It’s so tough but I know when I’m not actively fighting against it my world so quickly becomes so small. You’re welcome! I hope things start going smoother for you - and for all of us!

@Robbin Thank you Robbin for your time in response for my messages, I really appreciate that. I used to feel much more guilt and was blaming myself for my thoughts, but one thing that definitely helped me was listening podcasts with Joe Dispenza, Gabor Maté and others, over time I've realized that unintentionally I'm addicted to stress since my childhood. If you haven't heard of them yet, give them a minute or two. Thank you

@Robbin https://youtu.be/hnOJ46uGWZM

I think I have to stop focusing on that, it's insanity. Thank you Robbin for your point of view.

But you still have it, you didn't throw it away?

@bmark231 Ok. It's just making me realize that I'm more f up than others.

Exactly, I've thrown away all of my clothes at some point 😕

How are you handling it right now. Do you work?

@Vit I’m not handling it well at all. I’m not working right now cause I was dealing with cancer and I am in such a bad place. Are you doing ERP? I see my new counselor the 25th.

@Vit Is there a way to message on this app?

@Anonymous Other than just like right here on the chat, I don't think so. Have you ever tried meditation?

@Vit Or Wim Hof breathing technique? I always feel calmer after that.

@Anonymous Do you see connection between cancer and level of stress you're letting yourself be exposed to by OCD?

@Vit I’ve been doing meditation lately and it’s been Susie helpful!!! Calming music and breathing techniques have been so helpful!!!

@Vit I actually had a genetic mutation which made me high risk to getting cancer. I do however know I need to get this anxiety and stress under control as to prevent it from coming back. In my opinion. I was high risk and have a tricky cancer subtype.

@Anonymous Good! Continue with that, meditation can be very helpful. You can beat that cancer too, you probably know to not eat sugar, high fructose corn syrup, dextrose, maltodextrin and all other substitutes of sugar, right? 1 cancer loves it, 2 sugars depletes our bodies from but B1 wich is crushal in staying calm

@Vit I didn’t know that about B1!!! Thanks!!! Very helpful!!

@Anonymous https://youtu.be/rjVXFqiPDwE I love this guy. B1 deficiency